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MOVED

2008-04-24T15:23:00.001+08:00

alright.. i'm bored of blogspot liaos.. shifted to

whit3fang.wordpress.com

tata!

Human wildlife conflict

2008-04-16T19:59:00.004+08:00

been a long time since i last blogged..

well.. FYP is over... working on a tropical conservation biology module case study now...

was looking for pictures to show some effects of human wildlife conflict.. when i came across the picture above...

the picture was taken by a camera trap... the tiger was missing one of its front paw... people at WWF believe that it could be a result of the tiger chewing off its front paw in a desperate attempt to escape a snare trap...

i was angry.. and sad when i read this..

studying about conservation this semester was really saddening and heart wrenching... to see the depravity and the selfishness of humanity.. and yes.. i don't exclude myself from it also... to read about the destruction that we have brought upon the earth... i feel sad and yet hopeless... i feel sad that we have so utterly destroyed all that God has entrusted to us...

i guess everytime i think about all these... i look forward even more to Christ's second coming.. when He will expel all the evil in this world.. when His children will live together in harmony.. without pain.. without sorrow.. without tears....

though people have questioned if there will be animals in heaven.. or maybe even the new earth.. i really hope that there will be.. and somehow i believe that there will be .. coz God declared all of them good.. when He first made us all...

well.. for now... pls DO NOT buy animal skin products... really..

YOU DON'T NEED THOSE SKIN AND FUR.. BUT THE ANIMALS DO....

Xmas lightings 2007

2008-01-26T11:13:00.001+08:00

was going through the archives.. saw the pics that i took for Dec 2005's Christmas.. and realised that i've yet to put up the pics for Dec 2007's x'mas lightings!!.. haha.. so here they are... must say that i was quite disappointed with the lightings this year.. really dull...

Christmas tree outside of Plaza Singapura~

Cute teddy bear~

the three with the mission to capture x'mas lightings... wei ye.. hui lin + me~ =)

nice lights on the inside of PS

nice snowflakes along orchard road.. i know i need a new cam and better skills... bleaps...

decorations inside Centrepoint... very dull... very boring..

somewhere near heerens...

trying to make my pictures look more interesting.. hahaha... =)

nice geese~

geese with toy soldier~

angels!

nice teddy bears on display at taka...

the huge Christmas tree inside ngee ann city...

ballerina outside wheelock... looks quite out of place..

pretty lights inside wheelock...

somewhere near tanglin mall....

this has nothing to do with xmas.. haha.. it's just some fountain outside a hotel which i tot was quite interesting...

the decor at tanglin mall.. too bad we went after xmas.. didn't catch it when it was covered in foam.... heh heh...

haha.. not bad.. we walked from PS all the way to tanglin mall.. and back to orchard mrt...

but the lightings are really quite bad... i miss the xmas decor in sydneY! very very very interesting... bleaPs...

The Goal of God's love may not be what you think it is - John Piper

2008-01-22T07:56:00.000+08:00

" a rather long article by John Piper.. do take some time to read it... rather thought provoking... =)"

Do people go to the Grand Canyon to increase their self-esteem? Probably not. This is, at least, a hint that the deepest joys in life come not from savoring the self, but from seeing splendor. And in the end even the Grand Canyon will not do. We were made to enjoy God.

We are all bent to believe that we are central in the universe. How shall we be cured of this joy-destroying disease? Perhaps by hearing afresh how radically God-centered reality is according to the Bible.

Both the Old and New Testament tell us that God's loving us is a means to our glorifying him. "Christ became a servant ... in order that the nations might glorify God for his mercy" (Romans 15:8-9). God has been merciful to us so that we would magnify him. We see it again in the words, "In love [God] destined us to adoption ... to the praise of the glory of His grace" (Ephesians 1:4-6). In other words, the goal of God's loving us is that we might praise him. One more illustration from Psalm 86:12-13: "I will glorify your name forever. For your lovingkindness toward me is great." God's love is the ground. His glory is the goal.

This is shocking. The love of God is not God's making much of us, but God's saving us from self-centeredness so that we can enjoy making much of him forever. And our love to others is not our making much of them, but helping them to find satisfaction in making much of God. True love aims at satisfying people in the glory of God. Any love that terminates on man is eventually destructive. It does not lead people to the only lasting joy, namely, God. Love must be God-centered, or it is not true love; it leaves people without their final hope of joy.

Take the cross of Christ, for example. The death of Jesus Christ is the ultimate expression of divine love: "God demonstrates his own love toward us, in that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us" (Romans 5:8). Yet the Bible also says that the aim of the death of Christ was "to demonstrate righteousness, because in the forbearance of God he passed over the sins previously committed" (Romans 3:25). Passing over sins creates a huge problem for the righteousness of God. It makes him look like a judge who lets criminals go free without punishment. In other words, the mercy of God puts the justice of God in jeopardy.

So to vindicate his justice he does the unthinkable - he puts his Son to death as the substitute penalty for our sins. The cross makes it plain to everyone that God does not sweep evil under the rug of the universe. He punishes it in Jesus for those who believe.

But notice that this ultimately loving act has at the center of it the vindication of the righteousness of God. Good Friday love is God-glorifying love. God exalts God at the cross. If he didn't, he could not be just and rescue us from sin. But it is a mistake to say, "Well, if the aim was to rescue us, then we were the ultimate goal of the cross." No, we were rescued from sin in order that we might see and savor the glory of God. This is the ultimately loving aim of Christ's death. He did not die to make much of us, but to free us to enjoy making much of God forever.

It is profoundly wrong to turn the cross into a proof that self-esteem is the root of mental health. If I stand before the love of God and do not feel a healthy, satisfying, freeing joy unless I turn that love into an echo of my self-esteem, then I am like a man who stands before the Grand Canyon and feels no satisfying wonder until he translates the canyon into a case for his own significance. That is not the presence of mental health, but bondage to self.

The cure for this bondage is to see that God is the one being in the universe for whom self-exaltation is the most loving act. In exalting himself - Grand Canyon-like - he gets the glory and we get the joy. The greatest news in all the world is that there is no final conflict between my passion for joy and God's passion for his glory. The knot that ties these together is the truth that God is most glorified in us when we are most satisfied in him. Jesus Christ died and rose again to forgive the treason of our souls, which have turned from savoring God to savoring self. In the cross of Christ, God rescues us from the house of mirrors and leads us out to the mountains and canyons of his majesty. Nothing satisfies us - or magnifies him - more.

Immanuel

2008-01-05T10:23:00.001+08:00

Immanuel
by Max Lucado

The King walked over and reached for the book. He turned it toward Lucifer and commanded, "Come, Deceiver, read the name of the One who will call your bluff. Read the name of the One who will storm your gates."

Satan rose slowly off his haunches. Like a wary wolf, he walked a wide circle toward the desk until he stood before the volume and read the word:

"Immanuel?" he muttered to himself, then spoke in a tone of disbelief. "God with us?" For the first time the hooded head turned squarely toward the face of the Father. "No. Not even You would do that. Not even You would go so far."

"You've never believed me, Satan."

"But Immanuel? The plan is bizarre! You don't know what it's like on Earth! You don't know how dark I've made it. It's putrid. It's evil. It's..."

"IT IS MINE," proclaimed the King. "AND I WILL RECLAIM WHAT IS MINE. I WILL BECOME FLESH. I WILL FEEL WHAT MY CREATURES FEEL. I WILL SEE WHAT THEY SEE."

"But what of their sin?"

"I will bring mercy."

"What of their death?"

"I will give life."

Satan stood speechless.

God spoke, "I love my children. Love does not take away the beloved's freedom. But love takes away fear. And Immanuel will leave behind a tribe of fearless children. They will not fear you or your hell."

Satan stepped back at the thought. His retort was childish. "Th-th-they will too!"

"I will take away all sin. I will take away death. Without sin and without death, you have no power."

Around and around in a circle Satan paced, clenching and unclenching his wiry fingers. When he finally stopped, he asked a question that even I was thinking. "Why? Why would You do this?"

The Father's voice was deep and soft. "Because I love them."

Merry Christmas

2007-12-25T08:40:00.001+08:00

love calvin and hobbes simply for their friendship... reallie reallie sweet.... =)

updates

2007-12-21T21:41:00.000+08:00

the other day i was just telling Pei Xin that i'm very weird when it comes to blogging...

while most people stop blogging during exams.. i had the most number of blog entries during exam period..

and while most people blog alot alot after exams... i stopped blogging.. haha...

anyways.. dun have much photos these days... just my hermit crabs.. haha..

this is tiny.. died liaos.. apparently she may be an aquatic hermit crab.. so didn't survive in the lab.. and yup.. this is how a hermit crab looks like without her shell

this is weeny! the spider hermit crab.. she can scale walls! =)

Meshach XY* laid some eggs on 5 Dec... put them in the seawater from marine aquarium.. and some of them hatched.. these are the hatchlings.. but they're all dead.. weren't moving..

these are the eggs.... all released to the sea liaos... hopefully some of them survives.. bleahs...

Humans are selfish

2007-12-01T09:08:00.000+08:00

"Humans are very selfish" - this thought has been running through my mind for quite some time now...

i guess what sparked it off were those moments when i sat in front of the TV and saw the various commercials that flashed across the screen... the news from around the world etc...

the stark contrast between people in developing countries struggling to earn enough money to fill their stomachs... to have a roof over their heads... and the millions of dollars spent by people in the developed nations for commodities such as clothes, having warm toilet seats, exotic cuisine etc...

"why can't money spent on such mundane stuffs be channeled to help those who are starving, dying from diseases?"

i ask this question often...

i wouldn't say that i'm not selfish.. i'm guilty of such luxuries too... and i struggle with how i can help out.. and even the insignificance of the little help that i can offer...

well.. studying for marine bio exam... currently on the topic of human impact on the ocean...

this paragraph almost brought tears..

" The birds were not actually poisoned, but the high concentrations of chlorinated hydrocarbons in their body fat interfered with reproduction, specifically with the deposition of calcium in their eggshells. The eggshell became so thin that they broke during incubation before chicks became fully developed... Female pelicans sat on broken eggs ..." (Castro and Huber, 2007, Marine Biology, McGraw Hill)

in animal reproduction and development, i was taught that animals invest alot of their energy into reproduction, especially the females. Imagine the confusion and sadness of the female pelican when she realised that the effort and resources that she had put in for the production of this one egg has failed due to the fragility of the eggshell.... it isn't her fault... it is ours.. it is due to the amounts of harmful chemicals that we've released that has led to uncountable tragedies in the animal kingdom...

this is a California sea lion that is being slowly strangled by a nylon fishing line...

the little convenience that technology and discoveries have brought into our lives can sometimes be harmful to the unsuspecting and innocent animals of this world...

let's stop being selfish... let's attempt to make a small difference?

the next time u wanna throw a plastic bottle into the waste bin.. why not look around for a recycling bin first? the next time u wanna throw those lecture notes into the dustbin.. why not recycle it? and don't accept that plastic bag from the cashier when u can put those items u've just bought, into your bag...

too much damage has been done already.. but take small steps to make a difference.. =)

Hermit Crabs

2007-11-21T11:33:00.001+08:00

Meet Nephilim! the purple hermit crab! :) he/she was quite shy and stressed on the first day in spider lab... but.. after making friends with Shadrach (another hermit crab).. he became more active and often peek out from his shell to explore the world (spider lab) ! =D

this is pei xin's fave.. but doesn't belong to us... mossy.. belongs to Matthew.. from Sodhi's lab.. haha.. pei xin wanna exchange tiny for mossy.. =(

Nephilim, Shadrach and Mossy in the tank... plotting to escape... trying to look innocent...

CAUGHT IN THE ACT!

Don't leave it on the desk

2007-11-21T10:38:00.000+08:00

'DON'T LEAVE IT ON THE DESK'

There was a certain Professor of Religion named Dr. Christianson, a studious
man who taught at a small college in the western United States

Dr. Christianson taught the required survey course in Christianity at this
particular institution. Every student was required to take this course their
freshman year, regardless of his or her major.

Although Dr. Christianson tried hard to communicate the essence of the
gospel in his class, he found that most of his students looked upon the
course as nothing but required drudgery. Despite his best efforts, most
students refused to take Christianity seriously.

This year, Dr. Christianson had a special student named Steve. Steve was
only a freshman, but was studying with the intent of going onto seminary for
the ministry. Steve was popular, he was well liked, and he was an imposing
physical specimen. He was now the starting center on the school football
team, and was the best student in the professor's class.

One day, Dr. Christianson asked Steve to stay after class so he could talk
with him.

'How many push-ups can you do?'

Steve said, 'I do about 200 every night.'

'200? That's pretty good, Steve,' Dr. Christianson said. 'Do you think you
could do 300?'

Steve replied, 'I don't know.... I've never done 300 at a time.'

'Do you think you could?' again asked Dr. Christianson.

'Well, I can try,' said Steve.

'Can you do 300 in sets of 10? I have a class project in mind and I need you
to do about 300 push-ups in sets of ten for this to work. Can you do it? I
need you to tell me you can do it,' said the professor.

Steve said, 'Well... I think I can...yeah, I can do it.'

Dr. Christianson said, 'Good! I need you to do this on Friday. Let me
explain what I have in mind.'

Friday came and Steve got to class early and sat in the front of the room.
When class started, the professor pulled out a big box of donuts. No, these
weren't the normal kinds of donuts, they were the extra fancy BIG kind, with
cream centers and frosting swirls. Everyone was pretty excited it was
Friday, the last class of the day, and they were going to get an early start
on the weekend with a party in Dr. Christianson's class.

Dr. Christianson went to the first girl in the first row and asked,
'Cynthia, do you want to have one of these donuts?'

Cynthia said, 'Yes.'

Dr. Christianson then turned to Steve and asked, 'Steve, would you do ten
push-ups so that Cynthia can have a donut?'

'Sure!' Steve jumped down from his desk to do a quick ten. Then Steve again
sat in his desk. Dr. Christianson put a donut on Cynthia's desk.

Dr. Christianson then went to Joe, the next person, and asked, 'Joe, do you
want a donut?'

Joe said, 'Yes.' Dr. Christianson asked, 'Steve would you do ten push-ups so
Joe can have a donut?'

Steve did ten push-ups, Joe got a donut. And so it went, down the first
aisle, Steve did ten push-ups for every person before they got their donut.

Walking down the second aisle, Dr. Christianson came to Scott. Scott was on
the basketball team, and in as good condition as Steve. He was very popular
and never lacking for female companionship.

When the professor asked, 'Scott do you want a donut?'

Scott's reply was, 'Well, can I do my own push-ups?'

Dr. Christianson said, 'No, Steve has to do them.'

Then Scott said, 'Well, I don't want one then.'

Dr. Christianson shrugged and then turned to Steve and asked, 'Steve, would
you do ten push-u ps so Scott can have a donut he doesn't want?'

With perfect obedience Steve started to do ten push-ups.

Scott said, 'HEY! I said I didn't want one!'

Dr. Christianson said, 'Look!, this is my classroom, my class, my desks, and
these are my donuts. Just leave it on the desk if you don't want it.' And
he put a donut on Scott's desk.

Now by this time, Steve had begun to slow down a little. He just stayed on
the floor between sets because it took too much effort to be getting up and
down. You could start to see a little perspiration coming out around his
brow.

Dr. Christianson started down the third row. Now the students were beginning
to get a little angry. Dr. Christianson asked Jenny, 'Jenny, do you want a
donut?'

Sternly, Jenny said, 'No.'

Then Dr. Christianson asked Steve, 'Steve, would you do ten more push-ups so
Jenny can have a donut that she doesn't want?'

Steve did ten....Jenny got a donut.

By now, a growing sense of uneasiness filled the room. The students were
beginning to say, 'No!' and there were all these uneaten donuts on the
desks.

Steve also had to really put forth a lot of extra effort to get these
push-ups done for each donut. There began to be a small pool of sweat on the
floor beneath his face, his arms and brow were beginning to get red because
of the physical effort involved.

Dr. Christianson asked Robert, who was the most vocal unbeliever in the
class, to watch Steve do each push up to make sure he did the full ten
push-ups in a set because he couldn't bear to watch all of Steve's work for
all of those uneaten donuts. He sent Robert over to where Steve was so
Robert could count the set and watch Steve closely.

Dr. Christianson started down the fourth row. During his class, however,
some students from other classes had wandered in and sat down on the steps
along the radiators that ran down the sides of the room. When the professor
realized this, he did a quick count and saw that now there were 34 students
in the room. He started to worry if Steve would be able to make it.

Dr. Christianson went on to the next person and the next and the next. Near
the end of that row, Steve was really having a rough time. He was taking a
lot more time to complete each set.

Steve asked Dr. Christianson, 'Do I have to make my nose touch on each one?'

Dr. Christianson thought for a moment, 'Well, they're your push-ups. You are
in charge now. You can do them any way that you want.' And Dr. Christianson
went on.

A few moments later, Jason, a recent transfer student, came to the room and
was about to come in when all the students yelled in one voice, 'NO! Don't
come in! Stay out!'

Jason didn't know what was going on. Steve picked up his head and said, 'No,
let him come.'

Professor Christi anson said, 'You realize that if Jason comes in you will
have to do ten push-ups for him?'

Steve said, 'Yes, let him come in. Give him a donut.'

Dr. Christianson said, 'Okay, Steve, I'll let you get Jason's out of the way
right now. Jason, do you want a donut?'

Jason, new to the room, hardly knew what was going on. 'Yes,' he said, 'give
me a donut.'

'Steve, will you do ten push-ups so that Jason can have a donut?'

Steve did ten push-ups very slowly and with great effort. Jason, bewildered,
was handed a donut and sat down.

Dr Christianson finished the fourth row, and then started on those visitors
seated by the heaters. Steve's arms were now shaking with each push-up in a
struggle to lift himself against the force of gravity. By this time sweat
was profusely dropping off of his face, there was no sound except his heavy
breathing; there was not a dry eye in the room.

The very last two students in the room were two young women, both
cheerleaders, and very popular. Dr. Christianson went to Linda, the second
to last, and asked, 'Linda, do you want a doughnut?'

Linda said, very sadly, 'No, thank you.'

Professor Christianson quietly asked, 'Steve, would you do ten push-ups so
that Linda can have a donut she doesn't want?'

Grunting from the effort, Steve did ten very slow push-ups for Linda.

Then Dr. Christianson turned to the last girl, Susan. 'Susan, do you want a
donut?'

Susan, with tears flowing down her face, began to cry. 'Dr. Christianson,
why can't I help him?'

Dr Christianson, with tears of his own, said, 'No, Steve has to do it
alone; I have given him this task and he is in charge of seeing that
everyone has an opportunity for a donut whether they want it or not. When I
decided to have a party this last day of class, I looked at my grade book.
Steve here is the only student with a perfec t grade. Everyone else has
failed a test, skipped class, or offered me inferior work. Steve told me
that in football practice, when a player messes up he must do push-ups. I
told Steve that none of you could come to my party unless he paid the price
by doing your push ups. He and I made a deal for your sakes.'

'Steve, would you do ten push-ups so Susan can have a donut?'

As Steve very slowly finished his last push-up, with the understanding that
he had accomplished all that was required of him, having done 350 push-ups,
his arms buckled beneath him and he fell to the floor.

Dr. Christianson turned to the room and said, 'And so it was, that our
Savior, Jesus Christ, on the cross, plead to the Father, 'Into thy hands I
commend my spirit.' With the understanding that He had done everything that
was required of Him, He yielded up His life. And like some of those in this
room, many of us leave the gift on the desk, uneaten. '

Two students helped Steve up off the floor and to a seat, physically
exhausted, but wearing a thin smile.

'Well done, good and faithful servant,' said the professor, adding, 'Not all
sermons are preached in words.'

Turning to his class, the professor said, 'My wish is that you might
understand and fully comprehend all the riches of grace and mercy that have
been given to you through the sacrifice of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.
He spared not only His Begotten Son, but gave Him up for us all, for the
whole Church, now and forever. Whether or not we choose to accept His gift
to us, the price has been paid.'

'Wouldn't you be foolish and ungrateful to leave it lying on the desk?'

Share this with someone. It's bound to touch their heart and demonstrate
Salvation in a very special way

Heaven

2007-11-20T07:34:00.000+08:00

Revelation 21:1-4

The i saw a new heaven and a new earth, for the first heaven and the first earth has passed away, and the sea was no more. And i saw the holy city, new Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God, prepared as a bride adorned for her husband. And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, "Behold, the dwelling place of God is with man. He will dwell with them, and they will be His people, and God Himself will be with them as their God. He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning or crying nor pain anymore, for the former things have passes away."

I guess i always feel happy and contented(?) when i read the verse about God wiping away every tears from the eyes of His people...

maybe it's coz i've been a crybaby since young.. i really love the image of God wiping tears from our eyes.. and i remember another verse in

Psalm 56:8

You have kept count of my tossings; put my tears in Your bottle. Are they not in Your book?

yups.. i remember that Bixia shared this with me before.. that whenever she feels sad.. or cries.. she remembers that every tear that she shed.. God knows..

i wonder if i will post this up on my blog eventually.. i never really like to put personal thoughts onto my blog...

but i just wanna share with people who have yet to know God.. that He is so amazing.. and so loving..

suddenly recall the song that we sang during morning worship on Sunday.. remembered this line where it says that "God's heart is breaking.."... His heart is breaking coz His created beings have chosen to turn away from Him...

I was quite affected that morning when Pei xin shared with me about a friend who believes in evolution... i was quite angry even...

though i cannot claim to know alot about evolution... but to me.. the evidence for it just doesn't add up... the loopholes on carbon dating... the absence of fossil records of creatures in midway of evolving from ape to man.. the odds of having a mutation that will be passed on to the progeny... the odds of all the right conditions for life on Earth coming about coz of a random Big Bang... people believe in it because they refuse to acknowledge the existence of a higher being... and i suddenly felt that for people who have the opportunity to learn so much about God's creation and see how His hands are upon creation... to deny His existence is foolishness.....

Prof Li's birthday celebration

2007-11-17T12:47:00.000+08:00

yups.. spider lab peeps went out for lunch buffet at Rice Table (Cuppage) for celebration of Prof Li's birthday~ heh heh... the food was not bad.. but not fantastic.. nothing wowed me.. heh heh.. but it was a nice 2hr+ lunch with lotsa fun and laughter....

Car ride to Orchard was quite funnie also.. haha.. thanks to Pei Xin's videos.. hahaha... :)

the peeps from the lab.. missing eunice (photographer) and jeremy (chose to hide from camera)

Prof Li.. with the sponge spider and card that we made for him... combine effort of Pei Xin + Jun Hao + ME~ haha.. eunice and laura decorated the card.. and jun hao made the housefly 'pop out'...

Jesus' sympathy

2007-11-16T07:12:00.000+08:00

Hebrews 4:14-16

Since then we have a great high priest who has passed through the heavens, Jesus, the Son of God,let us hold fast our confession. For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but one who in every respect has been tempted as we are, yet without sin. Let us then with confidence draw near to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need.

Christ has entered into our world; He has participated in our suffering. He walked our planet, ate our food, drank our water, and felt our pain. Whatever we may be experiencing today, we can know with confidence thta Jesus experienced all that and more. God has entered into our suffering world.

Are we in physical pain? Let us remember His burning thirst. Has our dignity been assaulted? He was crucified naked. Do we feel as if we are in darkness? So was He. Do we feel forsaken? He was forsaken by the Father.

Just a short excerpt from today's devotion... :)

First love

2007-11-13T08:25:00.000+08:00

Posted this on the blog that i shared with my two disciples.. also my QT reflections .. so thought i'll post it here also...

Revelations 2:4

But I have this against you, that you have abandoned the love you had at first

I wondered again.. what does this first love mean? What is this first love that Jesus was referring to...?

" To paraphrase Christ's advice to the Ephesian church in Revelation 2, He says, "Renew your devotion to Me. Go back to the first works. You have left your first love. Renew your earlier devotion to Me."

Devotion is the sense in which the word "love" (agape) is being used. Devotion literally means "to vow completely." Baptism is the outward show that one has vowed to give his life to God, and so "devotion" implies complete dedication, total surrender. This hints at the Ephesians' problem: Their devotion—their complete dedication—was slipping away.

Devotion is a deep and ardent affection, a feeling. Its synonym are "attentiveness," "dedication," "commitment," "earnestness," but all with a feeling of affection. Devotion is not given out of a sense of obligation only, but with a warm feeling or a passionate desire. Jesus' charge to the Ephesians to return to their earlier devotion is not something that He is asking to be done merely as a duty. Some antonyms of "devotion" can help us see it from another angle: indifference, negligent, unconcerned, disregard, infidelity, and faithlessness."

Once again, i've been reminded that the Christian walk is not an easy one.. it seems so easy to fall.. so easy to stumble.. so easy to fall away...

That's why it's so important and crucial for us to renew our minds.. to renew our strength.. through prayer.. through reading God's word.. through communicating with God... so so so important...

It isn't enough to live a life of good moral.... because the Ephesus Church did that.. they followed the law.. they were fervent.. they flushed out false teachings and false prophets.. but Rev 2:4 tells us that Jesus had this charge against them.. that they had abandoned their first love...

Those words that i highlighted and bold.. let's examine ourselves.. are we guilty of any of these? I'm cannot say that i'm above all these.. because i am not.. i myself struggle to understand still what it means to love God with all my heart, soul, mind and strength.. i'm still learning.. so let's continue to pray for one another ok..? that we'll together love God and others .. because it is His greatest commandment...

Mark 12:29-31

.."The most important is, "Hear, O Israel: The Lord our God, the Lord is one. And you shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength". The second is this: You shall love your neighbour as yourself.' There is no commandment greater than these."

Studying for marine biology...

2007-11-12T17:43:00.001+08:00

i think most people are somewhat fascinated by the unknown creatures of the world.. and i think for now.. nuthin beats the creatures from the deep... haha.. yah.. i know.. i'm mugging for marine bio test.. and exams is just 3 weeks away.. my gosh.. i've been hecking caring about the modules for too long le.. time to start mugging mans.. thank God marine bio final paper is open book.. not so bad.. but i think questions are gonna be super tough....

anyways.. here's a pic of a fish from the mesopelagic zone.. 200-1000m below sea level.. dim light.. so no photosynthesis here... fishies are usually small coz they do not get sufficient food to grow big.. and hence they have to conserve whatever energy and resources they have.. hence.. this fishie here does not have scales and spines... cool right???

shall post more when i think i'm falling asleep from mugging.. haha.. well.. for the next few weeks.. i'm gonna educate people who come to my blog! haha.. coz i'm mugging! so i'll share the new knowledge that i gain!!! :)

Primary school kids and field trip...

2007-11-10T10:13:00.000+08:00

ok.. i know i haven't blogged for some time le.. haha..

anyways.. here's just some pics of the happenings of this week... heh heh..

first up!.. helped Chris for his company's leadership development programme with MacPherson Primary School on monday (5/11/2007)... went to Changi Airport and played various station games with 16 kids in my group...

group photo! :)

i'm a teacher! haha.. explaining stuffs to the kids and kinda scolding them for not playing the game properly.. they tore up the newspaper that they were suppose to use for the first game lah!!!

and i have two cute boys in my group! haha.. made a collage... using it as wallpaper now.. cute hor?? and the my fave is Kim Jae Hong.. the one on the right.. he's smart too! and very eager to learn.. :P

ok.. this is just a random pic of a cute cute lizard from Tioman.. haha.. very pretty!

Went to help out Pei Xin's friend Daniel Ng on Wednesday evening.. catch crabs at a rich man's stream in Hillview.. very fun.. haha.. the rich old man is super old and haggard looking.. but he's also super interested in biology! loads of books all over his house on the floral and fauna of Singapore and Southeas Asia.. and the stream is in his backyard.. very nice.. can hear the water flowing.. (no need to buy those fake gadgets to mimick the sound).. and we saw some pretty birds too..

a tiny snail that we found on a leaf while daniel was setting up his quadrats.. and pei xin and i were looking for spiders..

froggie that daniel caught ... it's a giant frog.. about the size of my palm.. and quite jumpy.. but super cute.. :)

I managed to spot some small crabbies in the stream! haha.. and daniel got a few big ones also..

haha.. i think i'm beginning to envy people like junhao and daniel who get to go outfield to do their work.. all the time... seems so fun.. much more interesting. and get to learn more stuffs also.. well... as compared to being cooped up in the lab... though got air con to enjoy and craPPie people to talk to.. but somehow think that there's so little stuffs that we're learning.. oh well.. looking forward to other field trips out! :)

2007-10-09T07:12:00.000+08:00

AN INTERESTING CONVERSATION

An atheist professor of philosophy speaks to his class on the problem science has with God, The Almighty. He asks one of his new students to stand and.....

Prof: So you believe in God?
Student: Absolutely, sir.

Prof: Is God good?
Student: Sure.

Prof: Is God all-powerful?
Student: Yes.

Prof: My brother died of cancer even though he prayed to God to heal
him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But God didn't. How is this God good then?
(Student is silent.)

Prof: You can't answer, can you? Let's start again, young fellow.
Is God good?
Student: Yes.

Prof: Is Satan good?
Student: No.

Prof: Where does Satan come from?
Student: From...God...

Prof: That's right. Tell me son, is there evil in this world?
Student: Yes.

Prof: Evil is everywhere, isn't it?
And God did make everything. Correct?
Student: Yes.

Prof: So who created evil?
(Student does not answer.)

Prof: Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the world, don't they?
Student: Yes, sir.

Prof: So, who created them?
(Student has no answer.)

Prof: Science says you have 5 senses you use to identify and observethe world around you. Tell me, son...Have you ever seen God?
Student: No, sir.

Prof: Tell us if you have ever heard your God?
Student: No, sir.

Prof: Have you ever felt your God, tasted your God, smelt your God?
Have you ever had any sensory perception of God for that matter?
Student: No, sir. I'm afraid I haven't.

Prof: Yet you still believe in Him?
Student: Yes.

Prof: According to empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science
says your GOD doesn't exist. What do you say to that, son?
Student: Nothing. I only have my faith.

Prof: Yes. Faith.
And that is the problem science has.

Student: Professor, is there such a thing as heat?
Prof: Yes.

Student: And is there such a thing as cold?
Prof: Yes.

Student: No sir. There isn't. (The lecture theatre becomes very quiet with this turn of events.)
Student: Sir, you can have lots of heat, even more heat, superheat, mega
heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat. But we don't have anything called cold. We can hit 458 degrees below zero which is no heat, but we can't go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold. Cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.
(There is pin-drop silence in the lecture theatre.)

Student: What about darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as darkness?
Prof: Yes. What is night if there isn't darkness?

Student: You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is the absence of something.You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light....But if you have no light constantly, you have nothing and it's called darkness, isn't it? In reality, darkness isn't. If it were you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn't you?
Prof: So what is the point you are making, young man?

Student: Sir, my point is your philosophical premise is flawed.
Prof: Flawed? Can you explain how?

Student: Sir, you are working on the premise of duality. You argue there is life and then there is death, a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, science can't even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life: just the absence of it. Now tell me, Professor. Do you teach your students that they evolved from monkeys?
Prof: If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, yes, of course, I do.

Student: Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?
(The Professor shakes his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the argument is going.)

Student: Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you not a scientist but a preacher?
(The class is in uproar.)

Student: Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the Professor's brain?
(The class breaks out into laughter.)
Student: Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor's brain, felt it, touched or smelt it? No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established rules of empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no brain, sir. With all due respect, how do we then trust your lectures, sir?
(The room is silent. The professor stares at the student, his face unfathomable.)

Prof: I guess you'll have to take them on faith, son.
Student: That is it sir... The link between man & God is FAITH. That is all that keeps things moving & alive. .

WANT TO KNOW WHO THAT STUDENT WAS?. . . . . . . . . . . .

The student was ... Dr. APJ Abdul Kalam,
the current President of India and this is a true story.

Underwater world - 03 Oct'07

2007-10-04T06:56:00.000+08:00

On the 3 Oct 2007, the bunch of LSM 4261 Marine Biology people made a trip down to Underwater World!!! hahaha... and P. Todd made us play treasure hunt-like game in the place lohs.. so dumb rite.. bunch of 20+ year olds running about the place amidst lots of tourists.... but i must say that he's really quite creative and quite smart.. hahaha... and the trip was fun! my first time to underwater world! wahahha.. so sua ku... =P

the tower of fishes~ i see 'dories'!!

going through the iconic tunnel .. with TA explaining about the many fishies swimming about..

big fish! haha..

fish with a bump on the head.. haha.. i'm so not being a proper bio student here.. ok.. i think it's some humphead fish.. i THINK...

shark! eh.. i think this is suppose to be some tiger skin shark..

check out the multiple rows of teeth!! it's so cool!!

"jaws" music playing....

the mermaid... miss dugong munching on her seagrass... haha.. her name is gracie!

this blue spotted fishies lives in the same tank as gracie!

jellyfishes....

corals + fishies + zooxanthellae + alot alot alot of plankton? haha

see the feathery thingy? it's some wormie...

nautilus... weird looking creatures.. that's a living fossil.. coz it's been around for a long long long long time..

Horse shoe crab! they have blue blood! =)

hmm.. is this the brittlestar... i think so lah.. haha.. lazy to check ..

another one~ =)

paku! huge fish... reallie huge...

this one is like longer than 1.5 m.. it's huge huge huge huge huge! and it lives in freshwater! i have no idea how it manages to grow so HUGE... another living fossil...

coconut crab.. much bigger than the usual crabs we eat.. haha.. it's a false crab..

male fiddler crab with it's huge pincer! they wave it around for courtship display!

marine spider crab.. the japanese found them.. and they live in really deep oceans.. apparently these die very easily in the aquarium... sads... poor thing.. they look like they're dancing coz of their slender legs yea.. =)

grouper that was staring at me... haha

a pretty little jellyfish..

that's all folks!

Sunday School Children's Day celebration 30'09'07

2007-10-04T06:50:00.000+08:00

sunday school teachers...

back row: auntie hoe leng.. auntie elaine.. hui'en's mum... uncle paul..

second row" peixin.. auntie chow tye.. susan.. catherine.. josephine.. auntie yit mei

front row: me.. lydia.. auntie karen

~ cute little children~

24 Sept'07 - 27 Sept'07: KL, Cameron Highlands, Senyum Caves, Forest in Gombak and Gunung Belumut...

2007-09-29T08:50:00.000+08:00

Mid sem break is over... tata... sads.. haha.. and i did not spend it doing my assignments.. (piling up).. nor did i spend it mugging away for the animal development test.. haha.. bOo.. yea.. i spent 4 days of it.. (including 16 hours of my birthday) in Malaysia!!! hahaha..

welcome to KL! 3 bored gals (xue yuan, me, peixin) waiting for Laura and Eunice who went to get the permit for collecting the spiders..

a froggie from Cameron Highlands... we were collecting spiders along Robinson's Falls from 1030pm to 1230am.. cool rite.. haha...

pretty flowers from Cameron...

yay!.. and we celebrated Mid Autumn on Tuesday as well!! when was the last time u played with lanterns!! haha.. yeps.. as usual.. the poor guys were forced to hold PINK lanterns.. hahaha... here's junhao and stanley..

me, laura, stanley, xue yuan, junhao, peixin and eunice... the colours of the lanterns were positioned in symmetrical way.. Taj Mahal style! *beams*

haha... cool effects from xue yuan's camera... prolonged exposure.. and the four of turn spinning our lanterns in figures of right.. nice rite? mine is the one on the right... i think it's the most symmetrical figure of eight... =)

Senyum caves... early in the morning.. for collecting Scytodes cavernarum... we found some Portia in there also.. haha

in KL.. malaysia is filled with mosques i tell you.. huge ones.. pretty ones.. all sorts of them!

happy! the doggie at cameron who's super friendly and nice.. =)

they have banana pie in malaysia..! taste like mashed up goreng pisang.. hahaha

and they have fillet foldover! not nice ones...

Leeches.....

the hotel we stayed in on the night of 26 sept... super sleazy looking.. coz all the proper looking hotels were fully booked.. we wonder why... bleahs..

the door of our room.. can peep in through the keyhole one lohs! and we were smart enough to put a duct tape over the hole.. wahahha.. =)

look at the tiles!!! it's so YUCKS....

Falling asleep...

2007-09-19T15:34:00.000+08:00

falling asleep doing SEM work in the basement of S2.. yawns.. lousy internet connection.. boring work.. SEM works very very slowly..

it takes like abt 1 min to take one picture...

and i'm taking pictures of spiders' legs..

1 leg = about 70 shots...

spiders have 8 legs.. so total = 70 X 8 = 560 shots..

1 shot = 1 min...

560 shots = 560 mins = ~9 hours...

wow.. 9 hours of taking SEM photos.. staring at the irritating small green flickering screen...

my eyes are gonna go real bad real soon...

wait.. it's not just ~9 hours!! there's more!!...

1 spider = ~9 hours..

i have about 12 spiders to do...

12 spiders = 9 x 12 = 98 hours...

98 hours = ~4 days..

woah.. sound so simple hor..

spend 4 WHOLE DAYS staring at the SEM.. then count the hairs and measure area of slit sensilla.. then HALF of my FYP is done le...

-cries-

it's crazy!!!!!

bleahs..

oh well.. at least the SEM is coorperating these days.. i get nice pictures... come.. let me show case my spiders' legs at 500 times magnification

The greatest story - Avalon

2007-09-01T10:03:00.000+08:00

Some days you own resolve is strong
And other days you bend
It's two steps forward, one step back
And you stumble now and then
You wonder if you'll ever really make the difference
You've prayed that you will
Well, I know that every pray will be fulfilled, 'cause

Your life woven day by day
Is a new design of the glory God displays
On the canvas of creation
Through the poem of history
In the pattern of remdemption
Running through the tapestry
Your life in Christ can be
The greatest story ever told

You cannot see the hands of God
Or feel the grace that flows
From Him through ou to those you touch
In ways you'lll never know
You cannot measure worth by human standards
That's always a lie
Oh, you have to see through heaven's eyes how. . .

In the light of eternity
Standing face to face you will finally see
For the very first time you'll understand
Your perfect place in the master plan and how. .

The things in lab.. the people in lab.. and the happenings outside lab.. =)

2007-08-24T10:35:00.000+08:00

lalala.. one fine day.. 4 peoples from the infamous spider lab decided to venture out for a good and filling lunch on the first day of sch..

thanks to jeremy who has a car..! wahahaha.. so peixin.. chris.. jeremy.. me .. decided to sneak out of lab while prof li was no around.. and have buffet lunch at sakura! :)

scallops

beef... chicken.. fish.. i failed all of them.. esp the beef.. so tough!

jeremy was smart enough to go for the expensive stuffs...

And Chris just started on his meal.. haha...

the rice balls!! nice!!! haha.. though it's like one of the cheapest stuffs available there.. haha

the yucky oreo cheesecake..
fruits!! kiwi and dragonfruit
the nice grilled dory with mango sauce~ yuMs
lamb chop chop chop chop
float.. ice cream in coke.. wahahah.. not bad~

peixin is going to explode... hahaha
sambal mussel....
Chris is full .... hahaha
peixin is gonna eat again...
Jeremy driving.. wahaha.. he refused any photo taking.. so i have to do it sneakily.. =D

my lovely little 'grapes' juvenile Scytodes pallida

some weird stuff that the other honours student junhao was looking through...

a little lizard that got trapped in one of Chris' trap...

a new record in Singapore... another type of spitting spider.. called purple butts..

a foreigner from Brazil~~~ also a spitting spider

Portia labiata.. a smart jumping spider... that eats my spitting spiders.. -_-

The ongoings of the past few weeks.. Part II

2007-08-11T13:06:00.001+08:00

YAF chalet at Changi Fairy Point Chalet.. the chalet is super duper huge mans... reallie...

The cooks for the night... i think after guys go through army.. they learn to bbq better than girls.. muahahaha.. hence these days..it's guys at the bbq pits instead of girls... haha

the girls skewer the kebabs! haha

Gathering to pray~!~!~!

the kids rush for sweet fizzy drinks! little keith and jian yang...

the food! all ready to be cooked! =)

i dunno what diphom was trying to do to huien.. maybe he wanna strangle her??? hMmmMms...

wenshan + me + little josaf!

the ladies + fishball eating keith!

roomies!!! =)

the guys... alvin ding + isman + samuel + joseph + daniel chan

cutesy elsa with her smile! =)

Mr. Mak Zhe Hao....

the yummie seafood!

the chefs who took over ! but i think some were just standing around waiting for food.. hahahaha

the YAs! diphom aka zhiliang + wenshan + daniel chan + gerard + zhehao + isman

the chef! uncle phillip!

people! haha.. let's see if i can name everyone.. on the left side.. from front to back.. uncle chen puar.. auntie karen.. melissa.. and i think auntie pingfen(?) .. on the right.. from front to back.. joseph.. mark(?).. isman.. auntie fo tai(?).. and uncle micheal

peixin happy to eat mussels!

people in funny post!.. left to right.. alvin ding + wenshan + gerard + eunice + peixin + lydia

me + wenshan.. i dunno what she's eating mans.. haha...

me + wenshan + little josaf

daniel chan + me + wenshan.. with nice light sticks!

sparklers! =)

happy people with sparklers! left to right.. little josaf + lydia + melissa + peixin + uncle micheal at the back...

wenshan + me + pretty sparklers and light sticks!

keith with funnie face...

lydia + wenshan

pretty bangles... from little josaf.. =)

the next morning... breakfast time.. in the kitchen.. i found two couples cooking! haha.. frying eggs.... so sweet~~ awwwww~~~~~ =P

The ongoing of the past few weeks... Part I

2007-08-11T12:57:00.000+08:00

Matric fair @ NUS with the aikido people... from left to right.. kevin + huilin chua + me + weiye + david..

Weiye the 'gay' trying to scandal with david...... so dumb...

A-I-K-I-D-O

proper picture of the david + weiye... haha... people say they look alike... poor david... =X

insects at Clementi woods

2007-08-09T19:58:00.000+08:00

went hunting for Scytodes pallida on Tuesday at Clementi woods ... spent 1.5 hours and only managed to find 4 of them... but theoretically speaking.. i've got about 80+ Scytodes pallida.. since 3 of them were found with egg sacs and 1 was found with spiderlings! yups.. also met some interesting insects along the way.. looks disgusting.. bleahs

A really beautiful song.....

2007-08-02T12:16:00.000+08:00

If I Stand - Jars of Clay

There's more that rises in the morning than the sun
And more that shines in the night than just the moon
There's more than just this fire here that keeps me warm
In a shelter that is larger than this room

And there's a loyalty that's deeper than mere sentiments
And a music higher than the songs that I can sing
Stuff of Earth competes for the allegiance
I owe only to the Giver of all good things

So if I stand let me stand on the promise that you will pull me through
And if I can't, let me fall on the grace that first brought me to you
So if I sing let me sing for the joy that has born in me these songs
And if I weep let it be as a man who is longing for his home

And there's more that dances on the prairies than the wind
And more that pulses in the ocean than the tide
There's a love that's fiercer than the love between friends
More gentle than a mother's when her baby's at her side

And there's a loyalty that's deeper than mere sentiments
And a music higher than the songs that I can sing
The stuff of Earth competes for the allegence
I owe only to the Giver of all good things

So if I stand let me stand on the promise that You will pull me through
And if I can't let me fall on the grace that first brought me to You
And if I sing let me sing for the joy that has born in me these songs
And if I weep let it be as a man who is longing for his home

So if I stand let me stand on the promise You will pull me through
And if I can't let me fall on the grace that first brought me to You
And if I sing let me sing for the joy that has born in me these songs
And if I weep let it be as a man who is longing for his home

And if I weep let it be as a man who is longing for home

busy through the week.. + an encouragement...

2007-07-28T09:01:00.001+08:00

had a busy busy week... monday to friday.. packed with stuffs to do... well.. in the midst of it .. celebrated dear lishan's bday as well.. strangely we didn't take much photos over dinner.. haha.. i guess we took too many photos during their convocation.. too tired to take more photos thereafter.. haha.. here's more pics from jas's camera.. waiting for the other photos! .... haha.. i'm so looking forward to next year! when elaine and i graduate! then we're gonna take studio photos all together! how cool! ... can just picture like a few more years down the road when we all sit down together and flip through the pics from our times in cedar.. jc times... uni times.. and graduation... =)

haha.. pic of cat! very cute rite.. belongs to one of the phD student in the lab... he pitied me for having failed trials that day and sent me his cat's pic... super duper cute! =)

yeps... seriously.. was very tired out from all the running about.. getting home super late...

was talking to God abt this on thursday while on the bus.. then was just overwhelmed with fear.. not knowing how i would cope when school starts.. then the song 祷告was playing on my phone...

所需要的力量，你天天赐给我，你恩典够我用。。。。

was encouraged by these words... a reminder that the strength that i need for each day is given to me each day by God ... that His grace alone.. is sufficient for me.... =)

hope this serves as an encouragement to those who are feeling kinda weary... =)

More creepy crawlies.. + the accountants have graduated! ! ! !

2007-07-25T10:48:00.000+08:00

haha... the cedar ganG! the graduated accountants + the 2 awaiting graduation people! =)

Cats ...

2007-07-18T21:19:00.001+08:00

haha.. cats that i met so far.. haha.. white cat above is one lovely stray at changi village hawker centre.. real big eyes .. totally princess.. royalty look... haha...

brown cat is from the coffeeshop near my house.. the real life garfield.. so totally heck care about his/her surroundings... with eyes closed and dozing off while people walk past.. and me happily taking pictures.. muahaha... =P

what's in the lab....

2007-07-18T11:16:00.000+08:00

Enter the spider rearing room... what evil awaits.....

meet one of the many many many tarantulas in the lab! this is some mexican red knee thing that's really common in the lab.... looks quite cool..

this is Scytodes magnus... the huge spitting spider from Batu Caves.. last i checked.. it grew fatter... ewww....

the tarantula again... i'm most fascinated by them.. haha...

see how big it is.. not tiny tiny one ok.. and this isn't the biggest.. i found a huge black one hidden in one of those obscure.. tot got nothing inside box with alot of soil.. that one is pure evil looking mans.. shall take a pic of it next time.. if it isn't hiding in the soil that it... fierce one!

haha.. in case u guys are worried.. no.. we don't conduct experiments on these guys.. too few of them to do so anyways.. and this isn't a genetics lab.. so no fooling around with DNA and watsoever.. it's behavioural lab.. we just stare at the spiders.. heh heh... =P come visit me if u dare! =P

Amazing Race @ Ubin 2007

2007-07-07T08:17:00.000+08:00

the aikido people! weiye.. me ... huilin and peixin.. same batch ppl! just that peixin has abandoned us... =P

all on the bus! on our way to changi point jetty! happy and excited! =)

the pretty dart board that we made... i really think it's really nice.. but it's been abandoned liaos.. bleahs... =(

finally a group photo of BPGC YAF! haha.. not everyone present though.. missing some ppl.. but hey.. this is a start! =)

beautiful beautiful scenery... why do i love to stare at sunsets.. sunrise.. the sky... the trees... the grass patch.... haha.. i think i know why ... i guess to me.. it reflects God's glory.. how amazingly He puts everything together.. and the beauty that these exhibit is but a small small reflectance of His beauty and His glory.. and i guess looking at the skies and the sea and the grassland just signifies freedom to me.. something that i always cherish.. freedom.. and my dreams.. hee hee.. yups...

wanna thank everyone who helped out for the amazing race.. wanna thank everyone who turned up.. wanna thank God for His providence.. heh heh.. really.. though i was really somewhat stressed up over this entire event.. running about and trying to settle everything .. i really enjoyed myself.. i guess i really love organizing games.. haha.. and most importantly.. really seeing how God blessed the work.. and the fantastic weather that He gave really touched me... really... through this entire process of putting the entire event together.. God really showed me what it means to trust in Him.. what it means to be working alongside Him... and a reminder that working without love is meaningless...

1 Corinthians 13:3-4

And if i have prophetic powers, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, if i have all faith so as to remove mountains, but have not love, i am nothing. If i give away all i have, and if i deliver up my body to be burned, but have not love, i gain nothing.

2007-06-27T10:45:00.000+08:00

Psalm 139
To the choirmaster. A Psalm of David.

O LORD, You have searched me and known me!
You know when I sit down and when I rise up; You discern my thoughts from afar.
You search out my path and my lying down and are acquainted with all my ways.
Even before a word is on my tongue, behold, O LORD, You know it altogether.
You hem me in, behind and before, and lay Your hand upon me.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is high; I cannot attain it.

Where shall I go from Your Spirit? Or where shall I flee from Your presence?
If I ascend to heaven, You are there! If I make my bed in Sheol, You are there!
If I take the wings of the morning and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea, even there Your hand shall lead me, and Your right hand shall hold me.
If I say, "Surely the darkness shall cover me, and the light about me be night," even the darkness is not dark to You; the night is bright as the day, for darkness is as light with You.

For You formed my inward parts; You knitted me together in my mother's womb.
I praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are Your works; my soul knows it very well.
My frame was not hidden from You,when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth.
Your eyes saw my unformed substance;in Your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there were none of them.

How precious to me are Your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them!
If I would count them, they are more than the sand.
I awake, and I am still with You.

Oh that You would slay the wicked, O God!
O men of blood, depart from me!
They speak against You with malicious intent;
Your enemies take your name in vain!
Do I not hate those who hate You, O LORD?
And do I not loathe those who rise up against You? I hate them with complete hatred; I count them my enemies.

Search me, O God, and know my heart!
Try me and know my thoughts!
And see if there be any grievous way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting!

Random Pictures...

2007-06-26T07:20:00.000+08:00

the tunnel.... that leads to HP care centre! quite cool rite... eh.. blur coz i was walking and taking picture.. there were people around lah.. so dun wanna be so sua ku and make it obvious that i was taking a pic of the tunnel... =P

cool motorbike... eh... apparently the person who set fire to this poor bike has been caught liaos...
tadaa! muahaha... =P

pictures from Bethany trip.. just some that i took with my hp.. here's the bus stop where we wait for 188 to get back to GCTC~~~ =)

pretty sky!

haha.. 1st day.. on the way to GCTC.. the guys all concussed.. and hansel even slept till he almost fell off the chair.. haha

pretty sky outside NUS...
the resident brown kitty of 99.. outside GCTC...

pretty sky somewhere near Bethany... =)

sunrise from GCTC... nice... =)

our daily dose of watermelon during mission trip.. haha.. nice juicy and sweet watermelon! =)

peixin's hand with a heart shaped carrot.. haha...

smiley faces + heart shaped carrot! =) we did veggies printing with the old folks!

pretty sky again! haha...

i think the prettiest part of nature that singapore has would be the sky.. haha.. the whole garden city thing is landscaped = fake = not exactly natural and nice...

watched shrek 3 on a saturday at PS.. ! =)

chaplain office in Bethany.. don't ask me why a huge pooh bear is there.... i dun understand either... but i found it rather amusing.. heh heh

boo!
had nydc dinner on the last night of mission trip... ! yummies.. all thanks to the guys who endured bed bugs and hence GC didn't charge us for the guys accommodation.. heh heh...

hui'en's bday! haha.. 'surprised' her by showing up at her place with yummie choc cake...! but she sort of expected it from all the fishy things that the guys did... =(

boo! oh no.. i just realised that i'm like as fair as her liaos... ... ... ... it's the lightings!!

heh heh.. i thought this is quite a cool picture.. taken from the family service centre where we had soul retreat... was watching the sun rise.. =)

and the sun is rising! =)

met up with cedar gang last saturday.. had dinner at Chicago steakhouse(?) at cineleisure... food wasn't fantastic.. and i think i recalled complaining that the menu was boring.. haha.. and jasmine ordered steak.. and it was so bloody... yucks.. disgusting lahs.. and she was sitting like opposite me .. and her steak was like ewwww lahs... and so i couldn't take it anymore and told her to flip her steak around...

which resulted in a more pleasant view... bahs...

This is funny....

2007-06-22T15:06:00.001+08:00

Went to ubin yesterday for recce trip...

Next Saturday! Amazing Race !! 1:30pm to 7pm..! join me! haha...

anyways.. i was about to file the map of ubin away when i saw this paragraph...

If you are lost in Pular Ubin, just remember this: 500 years ago, Christopher Columbus also did not know geography but being brave and adventurous, he perservered, sailed on and discovered the America. The rest is history. So if you are lost in ubin, you'll be delighted to discover yourself and amazed by the capability of nature to refresh the mind and body, something which orchard road can never do.

Pulau Ubin is only a small island approx 7 by 3 km. All roads lead back to Rome. In this case, the village and jetty

haha.. i think whoever wrote this is like super cute lahs... haha.. anyways.. some pics from yesterday's recce trip...

smiley face mosquito patch!

i love the sea... =)

casualty.... =S

funky phone screen! =P

yummie nasi lemak @ Changi Village.. heh hehs...

beautiful sky right outside my window... =)

Reflections

2007-06-20T10:22:00.000+08:00

The Mission

There's a call going out

Across the land in every nation

A call to those who swear allegiance to the cross of Christ

A call to true humility, to live our live responsibly

To deepen our devotion to the cross at any price

Let us then be sober, moving only in the Spirit

As aliens and strangers in a hostile foreign land

The message we're proclaiming is repentance and forgiveness

The offer of salvation to a dying race of man

To love the Lord our God

Is the heartbeat of our mission

The spring from which our service overflows

Across the street, Or around the world

The mission's still the same

Proclaim and live the Truth

In Jesus' name

As a candle is consumed by the passion of the flame

Spilling light unsparingly throughout a darkened room

Let us burn to know Him deeper

Then our service flaming bright

Will radiate his passions

And blaze with holy light

Church camp theme song....

a reminder of the important things of being a Christian....

to love the Lord our God....

To proclaim and live the truth in Jesus' name....

camp was good...

learnt some stuffs... both from the messages and the sharing by others

think right now.. the verse that keeps coming to me is this...

Revelation 21:4

And He will wipe away every tear from their eyes.....

someone shared this during the camp...

how can He wipe away the tears if there are no tears shed?

Matthew 5:4

Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted

although the situation may look bleak... although i feel so much like just walking away... but just remembering that God knows every tear that's shed.. and He will wipe away every tear allows me to continue to hope and trust in Him...

please pray along with me for my family...

Mighty to save - Hillsong

2007-06-13T14:19:00.000+08:00

Mighty to save - Hillsong

Everyone needs compassion

A love that's never failing

Let mercy fall on me

Everyone needs forgiveness

A kindness of a Savior

The hope of nations

Savior

He can move the mountains

My God is Mighty to save

He is Mighty to save

Forever

Author of salvation

He rose and conquered the grave

Jesus conquered the grave

So take me as You find me

All my fears and failures

Fill my life again

I give my life to follow

Everything i believe in

Now i surrender

Shine your light and let the whole world see

We're singing for the glory of the risen King...Jesus

Yups... back from mission trip!

wonderful time...

2 weeks with bunch of lovely people... both my team and the old folks...

looking forward to going back to visit next week...

looking forward to getting all the photos that we all took together!

yeps.. i miss the communal living!!!

i miss all our crap and nonsense...

miss the rooftop at GCTC...

alright.. for now.. it's looking onwards to Church camp @ Batam!

Bethany Prayer Calendar

2007-05-28T08:04:00.001+08:00

gonna be away for the next two weeks.... =)

on mission trip to Bethany Methodist Nursing Home...

pls pray for me and my team... =)

Everything to me

2007-05-20T19:28:00.000+08:00

Avalon - Everything To Me

I grew up in sunday school

I memorized the Golden rule

And how Jesus came to set the sinner free

I know the story inside out

I can tell you all about

The path that led Him up to Calvary

But ask me why He loves me

And I don't know what to say

But i'll never be the same

Because he changed my life when He became...

Everything to me

He's more than a story

more than words on a page of history

He's the air that I breath

The water I thirst for

And the ground beneath my feet

He's everything, everything to me

We're living in uncertain times

And more and more

I find that i'm aware

Of just how fragile life can be

I want to tell the world I found

A love that turned my life around

They need to know that they can taste and see

Now everyday I'm praying

Just to give my heart away

I want live for Jesus

So that someone else might see that he is...

Everything to me

He's more than a story

more than words on a page of history

He's the air that I breath

The water I thirst for

And the ground beneath my feet

He's everything

And looking back over my life at the end

I'll go to meet you saying you've been...

You're everything to me

You're more than a story

More than words on a page of history

You're everything to me

You're more than a story

More than words on a page of history

You're the air that I breath

The water I thirst for

And the ground beneath my feet

You're everything to me

Lord, You're everything to me

My thoughts and reflections

2007-05-20T15:17:00.000+08:00

Two weeks ago.. i asked God two questions...

1. Is it right for me to have my own dreams..?

2. What does it mean to be satisfied by God alone?

i struggled for the past two weeks with God.. kept pondering whether it was right for me to have my own dreams.. things i wanna do.. a dream lifestyle that i wanna have and all... at some point of time.. i decided that it wasn't right for me to have such dreams.. coz that would mean that i'm trying to take charge of my life .. taking things and making decisions that will allow me to achieve my dreams.. and putting God out of my life.... it was a struggle .. really.. and at that point of time.. i wanted so much to just shut everything out.. i didn't wanna think about this issue anymore... but God pursued me...

been reading this book "Captivating" by John and Stasi Eldredge.. got it as a gift from Mengjet and Esther last year.. as i neared the end of the book.. God answered my question...

here's an excerpt

What is written on your heart?

As I said earlier, the invitations of Jesus come to us in many ways. Sometimes they come through circumstance, an opportunity that opens before us. Sometimes they come through other people who see something in us that we may not yet see, and they invite us to step forth in some way. But God's invitations ultimately are matters of the heart. They come through our passions , those desires set deep within us. What is it you yearn to see happen - how do you long for the world to be a better place? What makes you so angry you nearly see red? What brings you to tears?

You will find that as God restores your heart and sets you free, you will recover long lost passions, long forsaken dreams. You'll find yourself drawn to some vision for making the world a better place. Those emerging desires are invitations - not to rush out and attempt them immediately. That also is naive. They are invitations to bring your heart to your Lover(Jesus) and ask him to clarify, to deepen, to speak to you about how and when and with whom....

After reading this.. i realised that God isn't someone who doesn't care about my dreams and my emotions.. He cares.. and the passions that He gave me are for a reason....

For the past two Saturdays.. Auntie Cecilia came down to share with us on the theme of Choices Deeds and Consequences.. i didn't really think much about it.. i thought i knew how to make proper choices.. basically.. i went with the just go and listen for additional information kinda attitude.. not expecting anything great....

She shared on two Bible characters.. Joseph and Daniel...

In Genesis 37, Joseph was given two dreams from God.. just two dreams.. two dreams that seem so impossible and absurd even.. given all that he went through for the next few years of his life... but through it all, Joseph held on to the dreams that God gave him and never wavered.. and as we all know.. the dreams came through.. after many many many years... after years of hardship and trials...

In the book of Daniel, Daniel and his four friends did right in the eyes of the Lord, and He affirmed them by granting them favour in the eyes of the steward in charge of them.

it wasn't until a few hours ago.. when i refused to read those journal articles on my bus trips that i started thinking .. reflecting and talking to God about my dreams again...

as i reflected back... i realised that God has been affirming my dreams... =)

ok.. in a way.. i dun really know what exactly my dreams are.. but i know that i wanna work with animals.. they really bring me alot of joy.. just looking at them... and i always wondered if God would grant me this dream since i cannot picture how working with animals would bring Him glory.. as compared to say being a missionary.. social worker and all...

and i guess it was precisely because of such thinking that i've always believed that God will NEVER grant me my dreams.....

but hey.. apparently.. this isn't so...

Entry into NUS (instead of Melbourne Uni) .. made me realised that my real interest isn't that much of stitching up animals.. cleaning their wounds.. vaccinating them .. etc.. He closed the door for Melbourne Uni and Vet science... and gave me Life Science in NUS instead... mind you.. He kept that door closed 3 times in 3 years... -bleahs-

Taking LSM 1103 Biodiversity made me fall in love with Biology... and i decided to change my concentration from Biomedical Sciences to Biology...

Working on UROPS.. "visitors effect on zoo animals" made me realised that i'm interested in how animals behave.... UROPS oral exam made me realised the existence of A/P Li Daiqin.. who specialises in Animal Behaviour ....

And lastly.. my final year project... a gift from God..

He closed the door for working with Dr. Peter Todd... animal and environment interaction...

out of the many people who approached A/P Li for honours project... i managed to get it..

even though i met up with him only 1 week after the exams, when many others had met up with him already...

even though i went into his office that day.. totally unprepared, having no idea what project i wanna proposed..

even though i didn't read up on the many articles that i was suppose to read up on...

and in the midst of my 'anyhow whack a project' he actually got interested in one of them....

do you see God's hand on all of these???

i didn't at first...

but i do now....

and such a revelation just takes my breath away... how amazing.. how sweet... how comforting... it is to know that God has been affirming my interest all these while.. how He led me onto the correct path without me even realising it....

and i guess like what Zhehao said yesterday during our group sharing.. "when you know that God gives you to green light to go ahead.. you can be assured and you'll have peace in your heart.. no matter what situations may come... "

yes.. i have peace... and full of excitement.. ! =)

"Lord, i offer my life"

it's a song that i love and hate at the same time...
that's why i wasn't very erms happy(?).. (dun reallie know what word to use to describe my feelings lah..) when i saw that it was one of the songs for singspiration yesterday.. i didn't wanna sing that song at all...

"wishes and dreams that are yet to come through" all to be offered and surrendered into the hands of God...

i didn't want to.. coz i dun want my dreams to be taken away...

but now.. finally.. i can sing this song with joy.. with thanksgiving... because i know and i trust that the dream that God has for me.. for my life is bigger.. greater... much more fulfilling than the dream that i have for myself.. that's He cares about my passions too.... =)

i know alot of uncertainties lies ahead of me.. but hey.. that's why i need to continue to cling on to God... and trust in His faithfulness and His plan for my life! =)

Thank You God... ! ! ! !

=) =) =) =) =)

sunsets~

2007-05-19T00:14:00.000+08:00

beautiful sunset that i captured at the track today... reallie wonderful to have such beautiful sunsets... it's a painting from God to me! =)

haha.. after a long long time .. with lots of people nagging at me.. i finally put on my hakama for the first time today.. yups.. and i had like a crowd gathering around me while i was wearing my hakama.. haha.. coz i dunnot how to wear! in the end.. rasco helped me with it.. heh heh.. well.. he also gave me a very very helpful tip! 'nobody's gonna inspect how u wear your hakama! just make sure that it stays on throughout training!" haha.. yups... so with that.. i shall anyhow whack a way to put on that hakama liaos! it's really troublesome ok.. spend so much time wearing it.. spend so much time taking it off.. spend so much time folding it nicely... SO TROUBLESOME.... =S

Outing with my DG!

2007-05-18T15:00:00.001+08:00

my gals made me wear those 'rabbitty' thingy... haha... =P
tadaa.. amelia and sabrina.. my two cute cute disciples....
fighting at toy 'r' us! too friendly fight le... haha...
heh heh.. and i made them wear funny stuffs too~ =P
i love sunset.. i love sunrise too! =)

The things that need to be done

2007-05-14T13:22:00.000+08:00

1 week of holidays gone! JUST LIKE THAT!!!

had a busy busy week ....

loads of stuffs to be done ... =(

in no particular order.. just typing whatever that comes to mind...

oh yah.. i've finally gotten my final year project! yay.. i'm gonna be in NUS for ANOTHER YEAR.. haha... ok.. not that bad.. given then i dun even know what i'm gonna do if i graduate... so staying around in school isn't that bad afterall.. heh heh...

eh.. gonna be working on spiders.. -ewwww- .. i hope i'll develop erms.. some liking for them soon... =...( i can't stand these creepy crawlies!!! ... oh well... spiders... eight legs.. many eyes... EWWWWWWWW~~~~~~~

things to be done!

1. FYP proposal...

2. Mission trip stuffs... prayer calendar... scripts for skit... blah blah blah

3. Plan for diving trip ! (interested pls let me know asap!!!! =) planning to go in august! )

4. catch up with my two gals...

5. Play games!! Jedi Knights!

6. Watch dvds!!!

7. Go donate blood!!!

8. Sleep!!! Sleep Sleep!!!

9. Plan for night cycling/ubin cycling..!

10. Meet up with my dearest Cedar gang!!! =)

11. learn to play guitaR! (hopefully i can learn another song at least.. haha.. though i still love chewy chewy.. hee hee )

so much stuffs to do !!

so little time!!!!

Late night out @ geylang...

2007-05-06T20:49:00.000+08:00

Late night out at geylang with hui'en.. diphom.. vivien.. dillon and weiyen mummie! .. haha.. crazy bunch of us were on our way home .. then reached Geylang.. weiyen's place.. and crazy dillon suggested eating beancurd... and the rest of us actually said ok! keeping in mind that we were suppose to catch bus at Bukit Timah.. and it was already 11:30pm... yups.. we're crazy...

the lousy blurry photo that diphom took for the three gals... -_-

diphom and hui'en .... see.. professional photo taken by me!

dillon and disciple! still a good photo.. coz taken by me! =P

two criminals spotted eating beancurd and you tiao @ Geylang at 11:45pm....

the disciple and the SM!

the day i finished exams...

2007-05-06T20:36:00.000+08:00

3 May 2007 ... end of exams!! wooSh.. haha... went out with church ppl to celebrate after our last paper.. heh heh... guess what we did... a bunch of 20+ year olds.... went to pet safari @ vivo... then.. went to ARCADE! hahaha.. it's been ages since i last stepped into arcade lah!!

diphom and daniel racing! look so fierce.... 0_O

wah.. so stressed!

after catching spiderman 3.. went for yummie dinner... yummie food.. =)

see! diphom was so SATISFIED......

*muaHahaHa*

Mugging in school

2007-05-06T20:22:00.000+08:00

Photos taken while mugging for the exams.. haha...

the gloomy staircase up to the muggerland @ Science Library...

the view from my fave table... the clouds.. the forest.. and the building... love it when the mynahs fly by.. heh heh.. =)

a nice sunset... =)

the same sunset...

trying to be creative... haha... =P

courtesy of weiye when i was going crazy over free radicals... haha.. can't reallie see clearly lah.. it's an ugly stick gal pulling hair till hair drop.. -_-

my sunday school kids... =)

2007-05-06T20:18:00.000+08:00

keith keith.. haha.. playing charades!

gabriel! =)

haha.. and i finally got a good pic of dear super adorable keith.. =D *beams*

~Cleaning up my room~

2007-05-05T12:13:00.000+08:00

haha.. i decided to clear up my room slightly today... so horrible.. i think i almost died of lung failure.. muahahah... not my fault.. somehow my room gathers dust like super easily... -sighs-

look!! so many many many soft toys!!! ok.. that's it mans.. i love soft toys.. but i dunno what to do with them!! they're like constantly fighting for space.. no place to put them... if only they can be compressed... bleahs... this is the result of having too many stuff toys.. and they're great at gathering dust too... *chOkes*

and so.. i finally made up my mind to store some of them away.. into the storeroom they go... hais.. poor things..

ok.. see.. now the cupboard is quite empty.. used to be filled with stuff toys... haha... nice! =)

and so.. i decided to put some books on the shelf.. haha... and my poor remaining stuff toys are living in squatter settlement.. like stuffed together... ooPs... ok lah.. at least they're better off than those who went into the storeroom le... heh heh...

ok.. so now my room is like erms... 1/5 cleaned... i cleared my desk too! and i washed all my stationery! and i washed my deuter bag!! wow... i feel so super clean now... ok wait.. i'm dirty now coz of all the dust on me.. but my stuffs are clean... and i'm gonna shower now.. then i'll be clean! wOOsH~ ...

ok.. that's it.. stop laughing at me liaos... BAHS!

If u consume too much carrots....

2007-05-01T11:21:00.000+08:00

ok.. i'm bored.. i should be mugging..

bahs...

anyways.. i really like Dr. Jenner! haha.. lecturer for Free radicals......

coz... he's friendly... and he uses cute stuffs on his lecture notes...

provide entertainment for muggers like me... heh heh...

so....

do u know what happens when u consume too much carrots...papaya.. etc.. i.e. overdose of beta carotene??? haha...

u turn into orange face!! haha.. i got this from the lecture notes ok.. dun say that i'm lame... muahaha...

eh.. this phenomenon occurs because beta carotene is fat soluble and hence accumulates in FATS... which is just beneath the surface of the skin....

ok... fact for the day is over for now...

back to mugging...

will post more if i see find more interesting facts.... and pictures... haha...

bleahs...

MUG......

~Girls' Night Out~

2007-04-26T19:42:00.000+08:00

the night out with ever dearest cedar gang... heh heh.. missing weiting though... heard that we're gonna banish her from our gang liaos ... ooPs....

the food!! yummie... from TCC... heh ~

more yummie food~ love the way they decor the food... heh heh... photography worthy..

the gang! the colours vs the dull and boring.... =P

the colourful people!!!! =)

the lousy wifey who refuses to let me 'eat soft rice' .. hais... so mean right...? =P

My Place in this world - Michael W. Smith

2007-04-16T11:11:00.000+08:00

My Place In This World - Michael W. Smith

The wind is moving
But I am standing still
A life of pages
Waiting to be filled
A heart that's hopeful
A head that's full of dreams
But this becoming
Is harder than it seems

Feels like I'm
Looking for a reason
Roamin' through the night to find
My place in this world
My place in this world
Not a lot to lean on
I need your light to help me find
My place in this world
My place in this world

If there are millions
Down on their knees
Among the many
Can you still hear me
Hear me asking
Where do I belong?
Is there a vision
That I can call my own?

Show me, I'm
Looking for a reason
Roamin' through the night to find
My place in this world
My place in this world
Not a lot to lean on
I need your light to help me find
My place in this world

my life thus far~

2007-04-14T18:51:00.000+08:00

Hui hui and me~ haha... slacking away during choc party.. yuMMies~
Peixin and me! shagged after cleaning up... x_X

a cat that i met after morning jog.. heh.. i know it's blur lah.. but this cat made me a little happier~ =)

Easter Sunday School! =) loads of kids!

Kids listening to story....

my p4 kid!! little gabriel is kawaii~ and a shy boy boy... =P

Lunch with peixin and hui'en at long john! peixin's sad that she's only eating the tray... *patpat*

Pre exams retail therapy resulted in this nice looking pouch! =) bought @ Bukit Panjang Plaza...

i told hui'en that i'll blog about this... miss banana read the zhen ji as yan wuo... my goodness.. her birds' nest really comes cheap.....

ok.. we were bored on the train... heh heh...

my life

2007-04-12T10:59:00.000+08:00

was doing QT today and this song came to mind once again... somehow i think i'm going through this entire cycle of having to be brought to the point of realizing that once again.. time and again.. i've failed to surrender my life to God..

i really struggle with that line...
" Wishes and dreams that are yet to come through..."

i think yesterday, as Shuhui prayed for me.. i'm reminded that God isn't just interested in my walk with Him.. in what area am I serving... but He is interested in the things that matters to me as well.. my hopes.. my dreams and my interests... that really really comforted me alot... that my God is not high up there.. ignoring the smallest details of my life.. but that He cares... He really does...

2 Corinthians 4:18
as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal.

i was just reflecting upon this verse...

I think God has reminded me that I will never be satisfied with life.... because it isn't perfect... but to look forward to what lies in the future... the eternal kingdom of God...

=)

I Offer my life

All that I am, all that I have
I lay them down before you, oh Lord
All my regrets, all my acclaims
The joy and the pain, I'm making them yours

Lord, I offer my life to you
Everything I've been through
Use it for your glory
Lord I offer my days to you
Lifting my praise to you
As a pleasing sacrifice
Lord I offer you my life

Things in the past, things yet unseen
Wishes and dreams that are yet to come true
All of my heart, alll of my praise
My heart and my hands are lifted to you

What can we give
That you have not given?
And what do we have
That is not already yours?
All we possess
Are these lives we're living
That's what we give to you

thoughts

2007-04-09T22:18:00.000+08:00

i put this picture as my wallpaper for my handphone.... cute isn't she? but somehow.. today.. as i looked at the picture on my handphone.. i felt sad... a sinking feeling...

i guess the picture reminded me of my desire to work with animals... today.. i shared on two occassions, about how i never wanted to get into life science in NUS.. that i had wanted to do vet science... on both occassions, people weren't really interested ... well.. it's not that i'm bothered that people weren't interested in what i am interested in.. but i guess it made me remember my passion once again...

i know that i'm really blessed... i know that God has blessed me with good results all the while.. and i'm thankful for that.. and it has come to a point where i started to question.. so what now? what do You want me to do with these? what do You want me to do with my life? I know i have to live my life to bring glory and honour to You, but what exactly can i do?

I think i'm tired.. really.. tired of interacting with humans... never knew that it can get so tiring.. i wish i could say that i love working with people.. but i dun... i just wanna work with the animals... i just wanna wander about.. experiencing new things... discovering new stuffs...

i remember weiye once asked me if i'll regret giving up on the scholarship.. i told him no...

it isn't that i've given up.. but i'm not being given the chance to... perhaps it's not what i wanna do as well... i dun really know... i like animals.. i wanna work with them... i wanna study them.. i wanna understand them... but everything just seems so broad... Singapore just seems too small... too limited...

Life isn't just about being happy...

I miss the excitement of a netball match...

I miss the joy of seeing a golden retriever... a husky.. an alaskan malamute.. a schnauzer... a corgy... of hugging them.. of being licked by them...

i miss night cycling... the cool night breeze and the stillness of the night....

i miss exploring different places in Sydney...

Random shots~

2007-04-03T11:36:00.000+08:00

yummy egg~... i wanna poke the egg yolk~~~ =)

Shuhui's bday cake.. ok.. slice of cake... courtesy of boss.. who always buys one slice of cake from Spinelli for birthday celebration... -__-"

YuMMie chicken rice from Dover Market.. i think... had lunch cum "PT" with boss and Dillon... =S yah! and there's like two chicken rice stores over there.. and they fight for customers! as in they're like super eager to get u seated and super eager to get ur orders.. so stress....

yummy.. almond jelly.. i love longans... heh heh.. =)

bread with chickie floss and cheese... bread is like super thick.. not very nice though... forgot the name of the restaurant liaos.. but it's in lot 1.. that's all i know..

tadaa... presenting.. the dog.. the little mr. bean and the giant rabbit! =) i was bored...

Just let me say...

2007-03-31T21:25:00.000+08:00

Just let me say

Just let me say how much I love You
Let me speak of Your mercy and grace
Just let me live in a shadow of Your beauty
Let me see You face to face

And the earth will shake as Your Word goes forth
And the heavens will tremble and fall
But let me say how much I love You
Oh my Savior, my Lord and Friend

Just let me hear Your finest whispers
As You gently call my name
And let me see Your power and Your glory
Let me feel Your spirit's flame

Let me find You in the desert
Till this sand is holy ground
And I am found completely surrendered
To You my Lord and Friend

So let me say how much I love You
With all my heart I long for You
For I am caught in this passion of knowing
This endless love I've found in You

And the depth of grace, the forgiveness found
To be called a child of God
Just makes me say how much I love You
Oh my Savior, my Lord and Friend

Just makes me say how much I love You
Oh my Savior, my Lord and Friend

Eight reasons why I believe that Jesus rose from the dead - by John Piper

2007-03-13T09:02:00.000+08:00

Eight Reasons Why I Believe That Jesus Rose from the Dead

by John Piper

1. Jesus himself testified to his coming resurrection from the dead.

Jesus spoke openly about what would happen to him: crucifixion and then resurrection from the dead. “The Son of Man must suffer many things and be rejected by the elders and the chief priests and the scribes and be killed, and after three days rise again” (Mark 8:31; see also Matthew 17:22;Luke 9:22). Those who consider the resurrection of Christ unbelievable will probably say that Jesus was deluded or (more likely) that the early church put these statements in his mouth to make him teach the falsehood that they themselves conceived. But those who read the Gospels and come to the considered conviction that the one who speaks so compellingly through these witnesses is not the figment of foolish imagination will be unsatisfied with this effort to explain away Jesus’ own testimony to his resurrection from the dead.
This is especially true in view of the fact that the words which predict the resurrection are not only the simple straightforward words quoted above, but also the very oblique and indirect words which are far less likely to be the simple invention of deluded disciples. For example, two separate witnesses testify in two very different ways to Jesus’ statement during his lifetime that if his enemies destroyed the temple (of his body), he would build it again in three days (John 2:19; Mark 14:58; cf. Matthew 26:61). He also spoke illusively of the “sign of Jonah” Three days in the heart of the earth (Matthew 12:39; 16:4). And he hinted at it again in Matthew 21:42 “The very stone which the builders rejected has become the head of the corner.” On top of his own witness to the coming resurrection, his accusers said that this was part of Jesus’ claim: “Sir, we remember how that impostor said, while he was still alive, ‘After three days I will rise’” (Matthew 27:63).
Our first evidence of the resurrection, therefore, is that Jesus himself spoke of it. The breadth and nature of the sayings make it unlikely that a deluded church made these up. And the character of Jesus himself, revealed in these witnesses, has not been judged by most people to be a lunatic or a deceiver.

2. The tomb was empty on Easter.

The earliest documents claim this: “When they went in they did not find the body of the Lord Jesus” (Luke 24:3). And the enemies of Jesus confirmed it by claiming that the disciples had stolen the body (Matthew 28:13). The dead body of Jesus could not be found. There are four possible ways to account for this.

2.1 His foes stole the body.
If they did (and they never claimed to have done so), they surely would have produced the body to stop the successful spread of the Christian faith in the very city where the crucifixion occurred. But they could not produce it.

2.2 His friends stole the body.
This was an early rumor (Matthew 28:11-15). Is it probable? Could they have overcome the guards at the tomb? More important, would they have begun to preach with such authority that Jesus was raised, knowing that he was not? Would they have risked their lives and accepted beatings for something they knew was a fraud?

2.3 Jesus was not dead, but only unconscious when they laid him in the tomb.
He awoke, removed the stone, overcame the soldiers, and vanished from history after a few meetings with his disciples in which he convinced them he was risen from the dead. Even the foes of Jesus did not try this line. He was obviously dead. The Romans saw to that. The stone could not be moved by one man from within who had just been stabbed in the side by a spear and spent six hours nailed to a cross.

2.4 God raised Jesus from the dead.
This is what he said would happen. It is what the disciples said did happen. But as long as there is a remote possibility of explaining the resurrection naturalistically, modern people say we should not jump to a supernatural explanation. Is this reasonable? I don’t think so. Of course, we don’t want to be gullible. But neither do we want to reject the truth just because it’s strange. We need to be aware that our commitments at this point are much affected by our preferences, either for the state of affairs that would arise from the truth of the resurrection, or for the state of affairs that would arise from the falsehood of the resurrection. If the message of Jesus has opened you to the reality of God and the need of forgiveness, for example, then anti-supernatural dogma might lose its power over your mind. Could it be that this openness is not prejudice for the resurrection, but freedom from prejudice against it?

3. The disciples were almost immediately transformed from men who were hopeless and fearful after the crucifixion (Luke 24:21, John 20:19) into men who were confident and bold witnesses of the resurrection (Acts 2:25; 3:15, 4:2).

Their explanation of this change was that they had seen the risen Christ and had been authorized to be his witnesses (Acts 2:32). The most popular competing explanation is that their confidence was owing to hallucinations. There are numerous problems with such a notion. The disciples were not gullible, but level-headed skeptics both before and after the resurrection (Mark 9:32, Luke 24:11, John 20:8-9, 25). Moreover, is the deep and noble teaching of those who witnessed the risen Christ the stuff of which hallucinations are made? What about Paul’s great letter to the Romans? I personally find it hard to think of this giant intellect and deeply transparent soul as deluded or deceptive, and he claimed to have seen the risen Christ.

4. Paul claimed that, not only had he seen the risen Christ, but that 500 others had seen him also, and many were still alive when he made this public claim.

“Then he appeared to more than five hundred brothers at one time, most of whom are still alive, though some have fallen asleep” (1 Corinthians 15:6). What makes this so relevant is that this was written to Greeks who were skeptical of such claims when many of these witnesses were still alive. So it was a risky claim if it could be disproved by a little firsthand research.

5. The sheer existence of a thriving, empire-conquering early Christian church supports the truth of the resurrection claim.

The church spread on the power of the testimony that Jesus was raised from the dead and that God had thus made him both Lord and Christ (Acts 2:36). The Lordship of Christ over all nations is based on his victory over death. This is the message that spread all over the world. Its power to cross cultures and create one new people of God was a strong testimony of its truth.

6. The Apostle Paul’s conversion supports the truth of the resurrection.
He argues to a partially unsympathetic audience in Galatians 1:11-17 that his gospel comes from the risen Jesus Christ, not from men. His argument is that before his Damascus Road experience when he saw the risen Jesus, he was violently opposed to the Christian faith (Acts 9:1). But now, to everyone’s astonishment, he is risking his life for the gospel (Acts 9:24-25). His explanation: The risen Jesus appeared to him and authorized him to spearhead the Gentile mission (Acts 26:15-18). Can we credit such a testimony? This leads to the next argument.

7. The New Testament witnesses do not bear the stamp of dupes or deceivers.

How do you credit a witness? How do you decide whether to believe a person’s testimony? The decision to give credence to a person’s testimony is not the same as completing a mathematical equation. The certainty is of a different kind, yet can be just as firm (I trust my wife’s testimony that she is faithful). When a witness is dead, we can base our judgment of him only on the content of his writings and the testimonies of others about him. How do Peter and John and Matthew and Paul stack up?
In my judgment (and at this point we can live authentically only by our own judgment? Luke 12:57), these men’s writings do not read like the works of gullible, easily deceived or deceiving men. Their insights into human nature are profound. Their personal commitment is sober and carefully stated. Their teachings are coherent and do not look like the invention of unstable men. The moral and spiritual standard is high. And the lives of these men are totally devoted to the truth and to the honor of God.

8. There is a self-authenticating glory in the gospel of Christ’s death and resurrection as narrated by the biblical witnesses.

The New Testament teaches that God sent the Holy Spirit to glorify Jesus as the Son of God. Jesus said, “When the Spirit of truth comes, he will guide you into all the truth.... He will glorify me” (John 16:13). The Holy Spirit does not do this by telling us that Jesus rose from the dead. He does it by opening our eyes to see the self-authenticating glory of Christ in the narrative of his life and death and resurrection. He enables us to see Jesus as he really was, so that he is irresistibly true and beautiful. The apostle stated the problem of our blindness and the solution like this: “The god of this world has blinded the minds of the unbelievers, to keep them from seeing the light of the gospel of the glory of Christ, who is the image of God.... For God, who said, ‘Let light shine out of darkness,’ has shone in our hearts to give the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ” (2 Corinthians 4:4, 6).
A saving knowledge of Christ crucified and risen is not the mere result of right reasoning about historical facts. It is the result of spiritual illumination to see those facts for what they really are: a revelation of the truth and glory of God in the face of Christ, who is the same yesterday today and forever.

~ another lazy day ~

2007-03-06T11:43:00.000+08:00

hOho... another tuesday... i love tuesdays... no lessons for me... haha..

finally finish watching all 15 episodes of 花样少年少女。。。

i don't like the way it ended.. super dumb.. it's like the author of this manga story just wanted to finish it off.. and didn't even bother to come up with a proper ending.. or maybe he/she was just trying to be unique.... watever... i dun accept such ending... it's like so 没水准。。。

alright... some pics to fill up this blog.. hahaha...

Kangeroo spotted at Smith's Lake...

a little meh meh in Taronga zoo~

tadaa.. presenting... the postcard form of Sydney Opera House....

everyone!

with the plant lecturer.. Peter Jobson....

some thoughts

2007-02-21T18:41:00.000+08:00

well... this has gotta be the first time that i'm actually treating this blog as a blog....

mid sem break.. time to slow down.. time to think through.. time to catch up..

didn't really thought about much stuffs through the chinese new year break.. was quite sick the past few days.. didn't have much energy to do anything.. and it was a great excuse to be laid back... and not do anything...

somehow.. started reflecting abit today... realised that i'm being put on the crossroads....

decisions to make...

one that will affect the next 1 year of my life.....

another that will probably affect my research focus...

yea.. realised that i hate making decisions....

why...?

i guess.. i've always live life with the "never do anything that u'll regret" kinda attitude...

wouldn't say that it works all the time...

i have lotsa regrets in my life...

but i guess the fear of making decisions stems from this fear of regretting the choice in future...

and at this time when i need God the most.. i find myself running away from Him.. i dunno why..

sometimes.. i just feel like shutting out everyone.. everything...

let's talk about my honours year project...

i guess i know what i want.... but there's this fear that i've gotta conquer...

and i hate facing such fears....

i think i have alot of fears... be it physical or mental kind...

i would love to shout out loud...

"I WILL CONQUER MY FEAR!"

but... words are just mere words...

easy to blurt out...

action is the one that counts...

a lot of fears...

i remember what JA said about me ...

"someone who has taught me what it means to pursue dreams"

or something like that...

i always wondered what i ever did to make him say that.....

i guess.. it feels much better being able to type all these out...

i dunno who's reading all these...

but i feel somewhat relieved blurting all these out

as if a knot has been untied in my throat...

我依然相信。。。。

最美的愿望一定最疯狂。。。

Beautiful....

2007-02-17T13:42:00.000+08:00

Why was my burden so heavy?" I slammed the bedroom door and leaned against it. Is there no rest from this life? I wondered. I stumbled to my bed and dropped onto it, pressing my pillow around my ears to shut out the noise of my existence. "Oh God," I cried, "let me sleep. Let me sleep forever and never wake up!" With a deep sob I tried to will myself into oblivion, then welcomed the blackness that came over me. Light surrounded me as I regained consciousness. I focused on its source: The figure of a man standing before a cross. "My child," the person asked, "why did you want to come to Me before I am ready to call you?" "Lord, I'm sorry. It's just that. I can't go on. You see how hard it is for me. Look at this awful burden on my back. I simply can't carry it anymore." "But haven't I told you to cast all of your burdens upon Me, because I care for you? My yoke is easy, and My burden is light." "I knew You would say that. But why does mine have to be so heavy?" "My child, everyone in the world has a burden. Perhaps you would like to try a different one?" "I can do that?" He pointed to several burdens lying at His feet. "You may try any of these." All of them seemed to be of equal size. But each was labeled with a name. "There's Joan's," I said. Joan was married to a wealthy businessman. She lived in a sprawling estate and dressed her three daughters in the prettiest designer clothes. Sometimes she drove me to church in her Cadillac when my car was broken. "Let me try that one." How difficult could her burden be? I thought. The Lord removed my burden and placed Joan's on my shoulders. I sank to my knees beneath its weight. "Take it off!" I said. "What makes it so heavy?" "Look inside." I untied the straps and opened the top. Inside was a figure of her Mother-in-law, and when I lifted it out, it began to speak. "Joan, you'll never be good enough for my son," it began. "He never should have married you. You're a terrible mother to my grandchildren." I quickly placed the figure back in the pack and withdrew another. It was Donna, Joan's youngest daughter. Her head was bandaged from the surgery that had failed to resolve her epilepsy. A third figure was Joan's brother. Addicted to drugs, he had been convicted of killing a police officer. "I see why her burden is so heavy, Lord. But she's always smiling and helping others. I didn't realize." "Would you like to try another?" He asked quietly. I tested several. Paula's felt heavy: She was raising four small boys without a father. Debra's did too: A childhood of sexual abuse and a marriage of emotional abuse. When I came to Ruth's burden, I didn't even try. I knew that inside I would find arthritis, old age, a demanding full-time job, and a beloved husband in a nursing home. "They're all too heavy, Lord," I said. "Give back my own." As I lifted the familiar load once again, it seemed much lighter than the others. "Lets look inside" He said. I turned away, holding it close. "That's not a good idea," I said. "Why?" "There's a lot of junk in there." "Let Me see." The gentle thunder of His voice compelled me. I opened my burden. He pulled out a brick. Tell me about this one." "Lord, You know. It's money. I know we don't suffer like people in some countries or even the homeless here in America. But we have no insurance, and when the kids get sick, we can't always take them to the doctor. They've never been to a dentist. And I'm tired of dressing them in hand-me-downs." "My child, I will supply all of your needs. and your children's. I've given them healthy bodies. I will teach them that expensive clothing doesn't make a person valuable in My sight." Then He lifted out the figure of a small boy. "And this?" He asked. "Andrew." I hung my head, ashamed to call my son a burden. "But,Lord, he's hyperactive. He's not quiet like the other two. He makes me so tired. He's always getting hurt, and someone is bound to think I abuse him. I yell at him all the time. Someday I may really hurt him." "My child," He said, "If you trust Me, I will renew your strength, if you allow Me to fill you with My Spirit, I will give you patience." Then He took some pebbles from my burden. "Yes, Lord," I said with a sigh. "Those are small. But they're important. I hate my hair. It's thin, and I can't make it look nice. I can't afford to go to the beauty shop. I'm overweight and can't stay on a diet. Ihate all my clothes. I hate the way I look!" "My child, people look at your outward appearance, but I look at your heart. By My Spirit you can gain self-control to lose weight. But your beauty should not come from outward appearance. Instead, it should come from your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in My sight." My burden now seemed lighter than before. "I guess I can handle it now," I said. "There is more," he said. "Hand Me that last brick." "Oh, You don't have to take that. I can handle it. "My child, give it to Me." Again His voice compelled me. He reached out His hand, and for the first time I saw the ugly wound. "But, Lord, this brick is so awful, so nasty, so..Lord! What happened to your hands? They're so scarred!" No longer focused on my burden, I looked for the first time into His face. In His brow were ragged scars-as though someone had pressed thorns into His flesh. "Lord," I whispered. "What happened to You?" His loving eyes reached into my soul. "My child, you know. Hand Me the brick. It belongs to Me. I bought it." "How?" "With My blood." "But why, Lord?" "Because I have loved you with an everlasting love. Give it to Me." I placed the filthy brick into His wounded palm. It contained all the dirt and evil of my life: my pride, my selfishness, the depression that constantly tormented me. He turned to the cross and hurled my brick into the pool of blood at its base. It hardly made a ripple. "Now, My child, you need to go back. I will be with you always. When you are troubled, call to Me and I will help you and show you things you cannot imagine now." "Yes, Lord, I will call on You." I reached to pick up my burden. "You may leave that here if you wish. You see all these burdens? They are the ones that others have left at My feet. Joan's, Paula's, Debra's, Ruth's.. When you leave your burden here, I carry it with you. Remember, My yoke is easy and My burden is light." As I placed my burden with Him, the light began to fade. Yet I heard Him whisper, "I will never leave you, nor forsake you."

UNSW and Night time Sydney....

2007-02-12T11:10:00.000+08:00

tall white Xmas tree in the shopping centre
Darling Harbour...
Darling Harbour again..
yachts at Darling Harbour
yet again~
not really huge Xmas tree outside the shopping centre...

AUTOMATED CONVENIENCE STORE!!!
haha.. didn't find one for non humans in the campus..
tadaa... an ARCADE in the campus !!
pretty ceiling...

makan mates! =)

more pics!

2007-02-12T10:53:00.000+08:00

ok.. once again.. i'm feeling bored at lecture... falling asleep... so in order to prevent myself from falling asleep.... (this is like a small small seminar room lecture... can't afford to be dozing off under the lecturer's nose !!! )... i decided to post more pics from aussie... haha... coming in batches huh... haha.. =)

here's a little scorpion.. only 1 pincer! so cool...
haha.. blurry pic of a really tiny frog.. it's really tiny.. trust me..
a lovely corgy that we encountered on our way back to the city... =) reallie lovely doggie with nice owners who allowed me to pet their little doggie!!
our bunk in Smith Lake... yucky mattresses!! fear of ticks and mites and every other creepy crawlies!!!
hair trap! ouch... for the little inquisitive mammals..
i love sunsets!
pretty unknown flower.. haha...

this is an inflorescence !! haha...

the swamp... doesn't look like Sungei Buloh right.. it's too erms.. bright! =) MANGROVES ARE NOT DIRTY! ...
shallow waters .. =)
nice rite?? =)
jelly like blob...

some pics from aussie... part I

2007-01-22T09:57:00.000+08:00

hahaha... this is the view from MY room back in Sydney.. beautiful isn't it... and i think this is like almost 8pm? haha.. summer = long days... =)

our first meal at Sydney.. maggie mee... + cabbage... =)

this is the living room... and that small thingy at the back is the small small kitchen! =)

This is the balconey.. but nobody uses it coz it's like super cold all the time!

beautiful clouds... =)

view of unilodge.. =)
pretty houses in the suburbs...

UNSW!
pretty suburb... =)

BOO!

2007-01-13T10:37:00.000+08:00

i'm back!!! haha.. ok .. for the uninformed... i was away for the holidays.. yup.. all 30 days of it.. and i spent it in the nice nice Aussieland!!! yea... took alot of photos... but that shall have to wait till i clear my work from Aussieland.... yea.. i didn't go there for holiday holiday.. i went there to... STUDY... @ University of New South Wales! haha... yea... but most of the time.. I was more of a part time student.. full time tourist..

say hello to the cute cute koala from Taronga zoo!!! =)

Some entertainment from Prof Ip's notes

2006-12-04T07:44:00.000+08:00

i present to you.... EVOLUTION!!!!! yay~!~!~!~!

=D

2006-11-14T19:00:00.000+08:00

yay~... buddies.. fellow gossipers.. crapper.... noise makers... and best of all sisters in Christ!!! =)

dancing king Kai'en~!.. the only one who appreciates my 'chewy chewy...' =D

Humans are the most advanced animals....

2006-11-11T08:42:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. after going through so many years (4 years+) of biology/life science... i've never ceased to wonder about this question...

" why do humans always think that mammals are more advanced than fishes and invertebrates..?"

and

"why are humans considered the most advance animal?"

haha.. of course.. God's word tells us so lah.. but i was just wondering how people who do not believe in the Bible or God come to this conclusion....

ego? perhaps...

well well.. i was just trying to find out about a certain von Baer's Law from the internet.. (coz lousy lecturer never got the point across .. to me at least... ).. and lo and behold.. i found out that mR von Baer has a sense of humour indeed... (who says scientists are boring!)

here's something that i got from the website... (http://7e.devbio.com/article.php?ch=1&id=1)

Von Baer was not adverse to using his lively wit and sense of irony to ridicule transformationists. He wrote (1828) a paragraph of his book as if a bird were a transformationist biologist writing such a volume. This bird, he said, would note that adult humans lack beaks, just as embryonic birds do. Their adult extremities are very much alike (having not differentiated into wings and legs) just as is the case of embryonic birds. Furthermore, we mammals show only the most primitive form of feather production. Therefore (this avian scientist would conclude), birds are far more advanced than humans, and the adult human resembles the embryonic bird.

For the little one...

2006-11-08T10:37:00.000+08:00

another installment of bday stuffs

2006-09-30T08:35:00.000+08:00

my bday cake!~!~ i love the rabbits.. so cute.. haha.. tiramisu made by mr kwan~ group pic with the aikido ppl.. hee hee.. nice balloons.... =D
nice fishie bracelet from yinghong.. geraldine and shirlyn~ =) fisher of men~ fishermen's frenz! =)
earrings from diphom and dichan~!~.. haha.. so cute~~~~ so animaly~ =P
mOO mOo cow!!.. yups... she shall be called moo moo haha... trust me to come up with cool names for my stuff toys.. =D
nice big jewellery box from peixin and huilin.. and ecommers(?) hee hee.. can put all my earrings.. and blah blah blah inside~~~ nice nice! =)

21st bday part II

2006-09-28T08:32:00.000+08:00

blogger was kinda cranky yesterday.. so i can only upload the rest of the pressies now lohs.. yups.. first up.. the very lovely book that huilin made and compiled... with loads of nice nice messages from aikido ppl... hee hee.. thanks a bunch ppl.. and huge THANK YOU to huilin for making such a lovely thing for me... =)
yup.. next is this anklet for moshi moshi.. haha.. bought with the taka voucher also.. bleahs.. quite cheap yea.. hee hee.. think ard $17+ bucks.. then added a bell... me love bells... but not too many.. hee hee... i'm kidish.. whatever... =P

yup... down to the very first present i got from my ever dearest cedar peePs.. the nice nice adidas jacket... hee hee.. i like it yea... though initially didn't reallie love the colour.. but well... ri jiu shen qing mahs.. haha... and this jacket really keeps me warm!! so nice!!!

haha.. no.. the humans aren't gifts.. just a bunch of lovely gals from ACTS camp... =)

Acts 1:8

But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit has come upon you, and you will be My witnesses in Jerusalem and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the end of the earth.

21st Birthday

2006-09-27T19:39:00.000+08:00

hmmm... 21st birthday.. i wouldn't say that is super fabulous and fantastic...
i recall that weiye kept telling me that i should do more stuffs to make my 21st bday a memorable one... like having chalet and all... i didn't have a chalet.. i didn't have any party of any sort... but i'm happy and i know that this 21st birthday is a memorable one.. not because of the presents i received.. but because i learnt something... =)

yups... i learnt to be thankful... i remember that 1 week ago.. while on my way down to meet my cedar gang for my bday celebration.. it suddenly dawned on me that i've been very unappreciative of everything and everyone around me... it dawned on me that these friends of mine are willing to take time off their super busy and super hectic schedule to celebrate my brithday with me.. and i'm thankful for that.. i'm thankful for friends who are willing to spend time with me... even though we've drifted apart since sec sch days... thankful for the joy and laughter that we enjoy everytime we gather.....

i'm really glad and thankful.. just wanna say a huge thank you to shufen.. lishan.. jasmine.. elaine.. qi... weiting also lah.. haha.. for our 8 years of friendship... for always taking time out to meet up for birthday celebrations...

thank you to Crusade friends.. ppl who are ever so caring and nice... =) for remembering my bday.. for the bday song... for the prayers... for the encouragement... for everything... =)

thankful for great friends in aikido... for the time and effort u guys and gals put in for the cake.. balloons... book.. and head scratching for my present... thank you ppl for celebrating my bday with me... thank you for the fun and joy and happiness....

yup... the book that huilin made for me.. with everyone's well wishes.. as i read through it .. i noticed how most ppl commented that i'm happy and bubbly.. and i'm glad that i've brought smiles to them.. that sometimes i've managed to brighten up the day just a little... i'm thankful for that.. i thank God that He gave me a reason to be happy.. to be cheery.. and jump with joy... =) not everyone goes through life as smoothly as i did... and i'm thankful for all the blessings that God has showered upon me... and i'm thankful that i too can be used to bless others.. =)

yups.. so though this 21st year of my life on earth did not come with huge celebration.. but i'll remember it always.. for the friends.. for their effort and time spent to celebrate my bday for me... =)

oh.. here's what i got for my bday... haha.. alot of items were bought though.. coz of the 100 bucks taka voucher... haha...

some namecard holder thingy for mum and dad... hee hee... =)

letter pad!! for me to write letters to everyone~~ haha.. =)

bear bear.. yay.. i love stuff toys ok.. =D

pen and some nametag holder for my mum...

haha.. tissue box cover.. always wanted one... hee hee...

chocolate sundae at some super expensive jap restaurant... 8 bucks ok!!!

green tea ice cream with mochi~~~ also 8 bucks i thinK....

yay.. nice top~ from taka... i had a hard time shopping for clothes there.. all so oldish.. =X

pencil case from 37 degrees... not gonna use it as pencil case.. it shall be my miscellaneous bag. haha..

erm.. i think i shall make this my pencil case lah.. the cat is expensive cat ok.. 22 bucks for this wors... wouldn't buy it if not for the voucher lohs.... =P

Voice of Truth

2006-09-24T08:36:00.000+08:00

Oh what I would do to have
The kind of faith it takes
To climb out of this boat and then on to the crashing waves
To step out of my comfort zone
Into the realm of the unknown where Jesus is
And He's holding out His hand
But the waves are calling out my name
And they laugh at me
Reminding me of all the times I've tried before and failed
The waves they keep on telling me
Time and time again. "Boy, you never win!""You never win!"

But the Voice of Truth tells me a different story
The Voice of Truth says, "Do not be afraid!"
And the Voice of Truth says, "This is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the Voice of Truth

Oh what I would do to have
The kind of strength it takesto stand before a giant
With just a sling and a stone
Surrounded by the sound of a thousand warriors
Shaking in their armor
Wishing they'd have had the strength to stand
But the giant's calling out my name
And he laughs at me
Reminding me of all the times I've tried before and failed
The giant keeps on telling me
Time and time again. "Boy you'll never win!"
"You'll never win!"

But the Voice of Truth tells me a different story
The Voice of Truth says, "Do not be afraid!"
And the Voice of Truth says, "This is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the Voice of Truth

But the stone was just the right size
To put the giant on the ground
And the waves they don't seem so high
On top of them lookin' down
I soar with the wings of EAGLES
When I stop and listen to the sound of Jesus
Singing over me

But the Voice of Truth tells me a different story
The Voice of Truth says, "Do not be afraid!"
And the Voice of Truth says, "This is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me (calling out to me)
I will choose to listen and believe-
I will choose to listen and believe the Voice of Truth
I will listen and believe
I will listen and believe the Voice of Truth
I will listen and believe
Cause Jesus You are the Voice of Truth
And I will listen to You

another dose of random pics...

2006-08-27T21:11:00.000+08:00

~meow~ catty here was happily seated on a cushioned chair somewhere in Chong Pang... ~meow~

i couldn't resist taking a pic of this super ridiculous cat... haha.. he/she is cross eyed!!! my gosh.. it's like so weird lah... reminded me of Hui'en.. muahahahahahah... u're gonna be like this soon gal.... muahahaha... ooPs...

i am cat.... watch me staRe at YOU.... -claws out~

celebrated yinhong's bday.. haha.. my two lovely disciples.... booHoo.. give to sharon liaos... soBs soBs...

watch me turn into gardener.. haha... pollinated orchids wors.. so pretty.. i think some orchids are really pretty~ prettier than roses... haha... maybe guys should consider stealing some from the plant house on S1 level 7 for their gfs.. ooPs.. sorry... THOU SHALT NOT STEAL... =P

i grew disgusting peas as well.. peas are yucky.. YUCKS!

oh.. and cauliflower.. haha... cool rite..? that's like a super small peice of cauliflower on agar... yups... watch my cauliflower grow!! =)

sunflower!!! bright and cheery~!~! i love sunflowers... and i know shufen loves them too~ haha... sunflower in the lab... fibonacci number... hahaha... dunno what i'm talking about rite.. hahaha... nvm.. just admire the pretty sunflower... so nice!! i want!!!! =P

whoever says that rainbows should be on the sky... see.. i've got one pretty one on the drain cover... muahahahaha.. =)

Random pictures...

2006-08-12T07:55:00.000+08:00

the bus of the yester years... don't u remember taking this type of buses when u were young..? the windows were so cool and interesting.. and the bus driver would have to rush to close all the windows whenever it rains.... =)

i spent hours making these cute fishies... drawing by hui'en... haha... meet angelina jofish and cindy crawfish... muahahaha... sexy liPs.. =P

baby kai'en!! so cuTe~!

for the uninformed... i broke another bokken.. sighs.. i killed my own bokken.. BAHS....

the night my bokken died....

2006-07-29T09:47:00.000+08:00

Random Pictures....

2006-07-27T09:19:00.000+08:00

No-aH~.. CG from Blastoff camp... 20-21 July 2006.. =)

me + shirlyn.. my disciple's bestie.. haha.. =)

Aikido farewell dinner for adam.. tse lynn and lucille... -sobs- -sobs-

Sensei + seniors + juniors... one big family~!~!~ =P

very yummie oreo cheesecake.... yum yum yum yum yum yum .... =D

loitering around in ECP......

2006-07-16T22:34:00.000+08:00

never ever fail to make my day... =)

i love these furry furballs... =)

= smiles =

~ Precious memories ~

2006-07-09T16:29:00.000+08:00

I miss Philippines....

2006-07-04T20:54:00.000+08:00

this is the view that greets me in the morning... =) such beauty....

SLASH SLASH SLASH

2006-05-28T22:06:00.000+08:00

this is such a pretty sword ok??? 1000 bucKS!... nice!! very very nice!!!!! haha.. my zanpaktou.... yea yea..... ......

yea rite...

not mine..... instructor's.... but he lets me use it!!!!.... muahahahaha...

grinS....

slash... slash... slash....

i'm a samurai!!!!!!......

samurai in training... =P

a nice beginning... =)

2006-05-28T21:58:00.000+08:00

Strolling along the hdb flats early this morning.. on my way to the market... look what i found...!!

KAWAII NEH????? though i'm quite worried abt the little one....

PS....

2006-05-28T21:44:00.000+08:00

alright.. haven't posted much.. i know.. i'm lazy... so here's some pics.. haha.. i think my hp cam sux big time.. but i'm too lazy to carry my lumix ard.. hee hee..

check this place out... at Plaza Singapura... beside spotlight.. nice nice.. though the stuffs there are like expensive.. haha.. but it has a real nice ambience....

my staff in charge, esther and me!

Basking in the love of God

2006-05-14T20:58:00.000+08:00

hmm... had alot of stuffs that i wanted to blog about.. alot of pictures... silly pictures that i took through the past few months that i wanted to put up... but i just feel like typing away and sharing...

was away for three days.. had Gen 12ii Mission training camp... this camp is totally unlike Meta camp... though we had it at PGP again.. and i stayed in the same block.. though diff room...

it's indeed a really refreshing 3 days for me.. really .. and i'm still basking in the love of God... haha...

i guess through this camp.. through being immersed in the Word of God for 3 days, i've grown in my relationship with God once again...

been reallie disappointed with my Dad's refusal to give me permission to go for my mission trip.. and haven;t really been walking right with God in a way... i kept rushing in and out of the presence of God for the past few months..

Had personal retreat on the 2nd day of the camp.. was reading the article that my staff in charge, Esther prepared for us... about how hurriedness kills relationship with God... looking through the checklist for the hurriedness disease, i ticked almost everything.. and i realised that yah... though i do my quiet time and pray... but i've been rushing in and out of these times.. i haven't been spending quality time with God, i haven't spent time with God in solitude for a long long time...

just spent a long time with God.. and i realised that indeed, i'm loving Him more and more.. how amazing... how wonderfully God answers our prayers..... i prayed for God to teach me how to love Him more 1 month ago.. and i see it being answered now... thank You LORD... =)

not my will but Your will be done... thank you to every single one of you who have been worried about me... who have been praying for me... thank you... don't worry.... i know that if it is God's will for me to go on the trip.. He will break down all the obstacles...

serene.. if you're reading this.. thank you... for being such a caring SM... -huGs- i've really learnt alot from you and i'll continue to keep you in my prayers... continue to trust in God.... He's our Jehovah Jireh ok..? =)

Hui'en... i think you read my blog lah huh.. haha.. thanks gal.. for always being there... for being the buddy who seems to be always going through the same erms... situations as me... i'll never forget my year 2 life in NUS... reallie.. though always complaining about how we see each other so many times per week.. but i reallie appreciated your company and your advice... =D
-poke poke-

one last thing to share.... i just wanna thank God for His love... that is unconditional... i guess as i serve Him through the past year... i've forgotten that God does not need me to serve Him... He doesn't.. that strip away whatever title i'm holding He still loves me just the same.... the reason He calls me to serve is to learn to trust in His faithfulness.. to learn more about Him... and truly to love Him...

A very cute Prof.....

2006-05-02T08:39:00.000+08:00

was checking my email ... looking at all the questions posted by various people regarding LSM 2103 Cell Biology ... when i came to this particular email.... i reallie think that Teo Tian Seng is uber cute.... haha

Your question
What do you mean when you say that apoptosis is active death whilenecrosis is passive death? What is the meaning of active and passive inthis context?

My answer
Apoptosis death is not death by accident. An example of death by accident is when you stand by the road side and a car runs out of control and hit you. You did nothing and your death is rather passive

However if you planned your death then it is more akin to apoptosis. You go to a gun shop and buy a gun and 2 bullets. Then you write your will and you make funeral arrangements and then you take the gun, and shoot yourself. This is no accident. You take an active part in killing yourself. This is apoptosis

For those coming to Life Science in NUS... look forward to meeting Prof Teo bah... he's reallie quite cute... haha... but of course.. there are those lousy lecturers.... and of course lousy TA from a certain land... *ooPs* ...

rolling off~~~~

I'VE CONQUERED CELL SIGNALING!~!~!~

2006-05-01T08:46:00.000+08:00

sighs... i love sch... i love studying... beats working definitely at least.... but i HATE exams.... growls.... i hate writing notes... i hate mugging... i hate spending the entire day mugging and mugging and mugging.. i hate it that i have to miss training coz i dun have enough time to mug... growls.. i hate having my life dictated by the CLOCK! growls....

and this.. is one of the things that exams can do to me... LOOK!! writing till finger pain... gosh.. i finished using 2.5 pens in like less than 5 days?!?! never before phenomenon mans.... quit complaining abt mugging u 'O' levels and 'A' levels lucky kids.... growls... k fine... go ahead... complain.. whine.. blah... coz i did that too at Os and As... but at least that's over for now... growls... 3 more days... FREEDOM!!! wooHoo... *jumPs* *juMps*

Two hours later... the damage increased..... =whines=

oh well.. at least after all these... and having woken up at the unearthly hour of 3:30am this morning.. i conquered Cell signalling, Secretory proteins, organelle biogenesis, cytoskeleton and organelles!!! woHooOoo.... now it's time to eat up apoptosis and cell cycle... growls.... must study must study must study.....

today is May Day!!!! ... day to listen to 五月天's songs!! haha... craps.... i'm going mad... i wanna take the yellow form... i'm mentally unsound... pls give special consideration when marking my paper.... boOs.....

roll roll roll roll roll..... tatas.....

my inner animal?

2006-04-28T16:23:00.000+08:00

Your Animal Personality

Your Power Animal: Deer
Animal You Were in a Past Life: Panda
You are a fun-seeker - an adventurous, risk-taker.While you are spontaneous, you are not very rational.

The Animal Personality Test

i don't understand what the pic of the squid is doing up there though... on the other hand... i feel so bad about missing training again... guess i really overestimated myself... thought i can finish mugging for 2103 fast enough.. but realised that reallie no time... sighs... I MUST TRAIN SUPER HARD DURING THE HOLS... I HAVE TO LEARN HOW TO SLAM AND BREAKFALL!!! I MUST IMPROVE MY BOKKEN TECHS.... MUST MUST MUST MUST MUST MUST MUST!!!! GAMBATTE!!!

i just love this pic....

2006-04-26T19:42:00.000+08:00

i'm so sick of studying... i wanna watch bleach... i wanna watch full metal alchemist.....

don't ya think this pic of Hitsugaya Toushiro is so cool???? bahs.. i don't care what YOU think... i think he's cool and nice! =P

They never fail to make me S-M-I-L-E ... =D

2006-04-25T09:22:00.000+08:00

sawatdii kha.... naa rak maak chay may??? chay chay chay!!! naa rak makmaak!!! chan yaak day!!!! tongkaan!!!

translate : greetings! cute right??? yes yes yes!!!! very cute!!! i want!!!! i want (stronger) !!!!

haha... practising thai....... let's try deutsch now....

tiere .... erms.. i forgot what's cute... wait.. let me go check the dictionary... ok ok.. tiere niedlich... richtig? RICHTIG!!! ich wollen die tiere!!! ich mag der Hund viele....

let's try chinese now... hahahaha....

你好！！可爱吗？？很可爱！！！我要它们！！！

ok.. bYes! sawatdii kha! aufwidersehen! 再见！！！

I AM LOVED~~~

2006-04-23T19:14:00.000+08:00

Lalalala... my rabbit loves me~~ yay~~.. he guards my door ok??!?!? show me a rabbit that does this... =P my rabbit ROX!... tho i bully him all the time... muahahahhahaha.... =P

i'm gonna sink into muggerland

2006-04-22T07:47:00.000+08:00

sighs... i'm not just below average... i'm very very far below average... growls... i DUN LIKE CFCHANG!!! YOU and YOUR stupid enzyme linK-ed receptors!!!!! GROWLS.... =soBs=

Sniff Sniff....

2006-04-20T18:39:00.000+08:00

hahaha... fine fine.. i just noticed... i haven't updated for 2 months... almost... *sweeps dusts and cobwebs away* ... nopes.. i'm not gonna do a 'springcleaning' for now.. just some erms... little dusting... hahaha... here's to those rabbits/animals/cute things lover (me!! me!! me!!) ...

awwww.... sho cute rites??? so lovely... -drools-

right.. tata... i think i'll be back in 1 month's time for full blogging?? i dunno... maybe i'll be back sooner... like now... suppose to be in muggerland with EMBL GenBank JJDB SWISSPROT PROSITE Pfam etc... if u know what i'm sprouting.. u're either weird... or u're in the same muggerland as me!! *bleahs*

TATAS! *waves*

rolling pinguin signing oFF.... i'm going mad..... roll roll roll roll roll..... SUSHI! ... craps.... oOps...

what i've been up to......

2006-02-23T08:54:00.000+08:00

omar.. the only male... staring so intently at me.. wondering what the heck i'm doing.. staring at him and his siblings for 4 entire days... =P

i love this pic of omar.. so nice... it's so difficult to take pics of them.. coz they are so white.. they flare(?)... and i'm not good with photoshop.. in fact.. i dun even know how to use it... bleahs.. so this is the best that i can do....

Jippie.. the elusive beauty who refuse to be captured by the cam....

better shot of the beauty....

And.. finally... i managed to capture her... haha... feeding time... waiting for her food in the water.. hence able to get her... she's so pretty so so so pretty...

sweeping some dust away...

2006-02-16T07:26:00.000+08:00

haha... i know it's like way after chinese new year liaos.. but i was just taking a break from doing my stats tutorial.. so decided to make a nice collage of the aiki steamboat pics... hees... so here it is.... =P

The Lion, the witch and the wardrobe

2006-01-31T11:27:00.000+08:00

" ... when a willing victim who had committed no treachery was killed in a traitor's stead, the Table would crack and Death itself would start working backward..."

i think everyone who has watched the movie should really read the book... didn't managed to catch the movie myself... but the book is reallie nice... very touching.. how Aslan sacrificed himself for Edward... how a great beast did not retaliate when he was shaved.. bound.. tortured... but Death was defeated... beautiful isn't it?

And do you know that there really is someone as noble as Aslan...? =)

We were the reason - Avalon

As little children

We would dream of Christmas morn

Of all the gifts and toys

We knew we'd find

But we never realized

A baby born one blessed night

Gave us the greatest gift of our lives

We were the reason

That He gave His life

We were the reason

That He suffered and died

To a world that was lost

He gave all He could give

To show us the reason to live

As the years went by

We learned more about gifts

The giving of ourselves

And what that means

On a dark and cloudy day

A man hung crying in the rain

All because of love, all because of love

I've finally found the reason for living

It's in giving every part of my heart to Him

In all that I do every word that I say

I'll be giving my all just for Him, for Him

He is my reason to live

If My People Pray

2006-01-30T21:38:00.000+08:00

Avalon - If My People Pray

Now is the season for healing

Deeply we need to see, God's mercy revealing

Where we have fallen from his ways

For we know he gives hope to the humble,

gives light in the darkness, and grace when we stumble

Let us, call on His name, together, knowing he will say

If my people pray

and reach for me with hearts, that are broken

I will not forget what I've spoken

Come and seek my grace

Heaven will rain, rivers of my grace, overflowing

Night and day my ears will be open...

If my people pray

Now is the day to awaken, to pray with conviction,

to the souls of the nation

(So) let us, call on His name

Whose faithful, promise still remain

If my people pray

and reach for me with hearts, that are broken

I will not forget what I've spoken (oo)

Come and seek my grace (seek ye and..)

Heaven will reign, rivers of my grace, overflowing

Night and day my ears will be open...

If my people pray

Let us not grow weary as we wait for the day

When the Light turns our night into morning

All we need is to call your name

As we lift our hearts to Heaven (yeah)

Knowing You will say...

If my people pray

and reach for me with hearts, that are broken

I will not forget what I've spoken (oo)

Come and seek my grace (seek ye and...)

Heaven will reign, rivers of my grace, overflowing

Night and day my ears will be open...

If my people pray(oo)

If my people pray

random pics

2006-01-30T00:06:00.000+08:00

haha.. hui'en and i exchanged slippers the other day.. and our Thai tutor thought that Hui'en's bonkers!!! =P

Russian froggies!!! so cute!.. belongs to Jorin and Peixin.. haha... the first Vegasus outing of year 2006... wonder when the next's gonna be... =P

新年快乐！！！！

2006-01-29T17:16:00.000+08:00

yay~!~!... it's chinese new year!!!!... haha.. i know i know.. i haven't posted anything for such a long time.. but hey.. that's coz there hasn't been anything interestin goin on... and i do not have like a super small cam for me to bring about with me.. haha... maybe i shall bring my cam to sch one day and do one entry dedicated to NUS.. *gRinZ*

anyways... i took pics of my new year clothes!.. haha... finally got down to blogging about them.. hee hee... First up... it's a super cheap dress that i bought from espirit.. haha... it's green!!! and it's dull!!!.. so unlike me... hahaha... =P and i got something to match it with... but after wearing them together.. i realised that it ain't much of a match... bleahs... =S

haha.. the skirt is jappy! haha.. it's the only jappy thing that i managed to get.. tho i was half thinking of getting a white blouse and a huge tie to go along with it.. haha... =P

bought this pendant to go along with my pinkish whtie tube top... yay~

this is a ring!! and i got it for free...!! haha.. went to this shop in far east where the owner gave this ring away.. coz his shop closing down le.. then he wanna get rid of his merchandise... haha.. so funnie.....

new year visiting was ok.. kinda boring as usual... kinda sad... realised that my granduncle had a minor stroke... thinking of it.. i realise that some day both my granduncle and grandaunt gonna be gone... i wonder if i'll cry.. i know i'll be very sad... they are like my grandparents to me... somehow since young i've always been much closer to them.. i always look forward to visiting them... and today.. as i look at them.. as i listen to them... i felt very scared ... that someday.. they're gonna be gone..

oh well.. i guess we shouldn't be thinking about such stuff at this time .....

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MOVED

Human wildlife conflict

Xmas lightings 2007

The Goal of God's love may not be what you think it is - John Piper

Immanuel

Merry Christmas

updates

Humans are selfish

Hermit Crabs

Don't leave it on the desk

Heaven

Prof Li's birthday celebration

Jesus' sympathy

First love

Studying for marine biology...

Primary school kids and field trip...

Underwater world - 03 Oct'07

Sunday School Children's Day celebration 30'09'07

24 Sept'07 - 27 Sept'07: KL, Cameron Highlands, Senyum Caves, Forest in Gombak and Gunung Belumut...

Falling asleep...

The greatest story - Avalon

The things in lab.. the people in lab.. and the happenings outside lab.. =)

The ongoings of the past few weeks.. Part II

The ongoing of the past few weeks... Part I

insects at Clementi woods

A really beautiful song.....

busy through the week.. + an encouragement...

More creepy crawlies.. + the accountants have graduated! ! ! !

Cats ...

what's in the lab....

Amazing Race @ Ubin 2007

Random Pictures...

This is funny....

Reflections

Mighty to save - Hillsong

Bethany Prayer Calendar

Everything to me

My thoughts and reflections

sunsets~

Outing with my DG!

The things that need to be done

Late night out @ geylang...

the day i finished exams...

Mugging in school

my sunday school kids... =)

~Cleaning up my room~

If u consume too much carrots....

~Girls' Night Out~

My Place in this world - Michael W. Smith

my life thus far~

my life

thoughts

Random shots~

Just let me say...

Eight reasons why I believe that Jesus rose from the dead - by John Piper

~ another lazy day ~

some thoughts

Beautiful....

UNSW and Night time Sydney....

more pics!

some pics from aussie... part I

BOO!

Some entertainment from Prof Ip's notes

=D

Humans are the most advanced animals....

For the little one...

another installment of bday stuffs

21st bday part II

21st Birthday

Voice of Truth

another dose of random pics...

Random pictures...

the night my bokken died....

Random Pictures....

loitering around in ECP......

~ Precious memories ~

I miss Philippines....

SLASH SLASH SLASH

a nice beginning... =)

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